Today has been quite the crazy day, but this craziness wasn’t from the server, but real life of my mother having some pretty bad issues with her computer (and I’m the only one in the family that would know what to do).
But when I was finally free (installing Windows 7 to her computer) and able to check the Discord server, I was surprised to find there still wasn’t another announcement. Perhaps Kibble is too busy to do so. He does have a life outside of VRChat.
5:30pm came. I was hanging out in Best Boi lands (while also periodically checking the Discord server), and the announcements channel lit up. I’m thinking “finally!” Except the message wasn’t from Kibble, but the mod (Zura) that was with us in our private meeting. He states there will be a “urgent meeting”. I had no idea ‘urgent’ meant “a half an hour”.. SHIT! That’s dinnertime for me! First my parents and now this! While I was fixing dinner earlier than I wanted, all I could think of was “why.. why, Kibble?! Why 6?!” But I rushed to get back to my computer, dinner in hand as 6pm got closer and closer. I had to hop back on, forgetting that they’ll probably drop a Friends+ portal down soon.
Now through the portal and grabbing a seat, I’m thinking “finally Kibble will make a decision! Can’t wait to get this out of my head.” But this was no ordinary meeting, where the speaker would calmly discuss the issues. The pre-meeting alone, instead of hearing “thank you for coming on such short notice”, we were flat out told to “shut the fuck up”, and we would be banned for even a peep. And they were not fucking kidding, seeing a few people suddenly disappearing from their chairs. I am surprised, that people weren’t banned for not looking at the speaker as they talked. It was that bad.
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CommanderCharms spoke, treating us like utter shit. But it wasn’t for no reason, as Kibble has also been treated like shit.. for getting 20+ DM’s in 15 minutes, while he was at work. And they were all over that stupid plaque, that I have said it wasn’t a big deal. There’s no way to know just how many DMs he got in that day. This news is supposed to shock and anger you, yet all I could feel was disappointment to myself.
As the meeting continued, I could clearly see Charms was getting more and more pissed off, even saying “if you don’t like hearing this.. there’s the door, get the fuck out”.
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It reached a point where it seemed almost directed at the private meeting we had (even though we made a vow that “we don’t hate Kibble”).
Where in the hell did we go wrong?! We were only expressing our concerns for the community (since Kibble wasn’t listening to us)!! Plus, Ashi was the only one that DM’d him! Why are WE getting the blame here?? And then, the answer hit me like a sack of hammers (with Charms saying “take it up to the mods, not Kibble”). Even though Kibble’s the owner, we were supposed to take it up to the mods first. Not once did this cross my mind. Not once, was I fucking using my common sense.
When the meeting was finally over, I went to Creepery (in DMs), completely beside myself. I didn’t know who to fucking believe anymore, and strongly considered of leaving the Best Bois in shame. And even though Charms said of going to the mods instead of Kibble for issues like this, my brain was all “but the mods didn’t make the server, Kibble did.”
I couldn’t believe what I was thinking. What the fuck happened to me? Unfortunately, Creepery wasn’t making it any easier (by saying “it wasn’t our fault”).. it was. We should had never did that private meeting, and took our concerns directly to the mods! We could had stopped the drama, right then and there! But no, none of us were thinking straight. No fucking WONDER Kibble thought we were “a bunch of rebels”! We were, for trying to get this busy man to do more, than what he’s already doing in his life.
And the plaque, even more shame for believing it was a big deal. I have said specifically that it wasn’t, that it was just a bunch of names. But Jrock… suddenly, something snapped in my head– the shame turning into anger.
Jrock.. is the one that started this fucking drama. Jrock was the one that convinced me that Twitchin is the reason the server is up(and how she cusses in her streams). Jrock is the one that convinced Creepery that “Kibble doesn’t give a fuck about you”. …And Jrock is the one that wouldn’t drop the drama about the plaque.
He started all of this, and we were too blind with his toxicity to think straight. Since then, it felt a heavy burden had lifted from me. It wasn’t my fault.
I also was able to remove the remaining toxicity from my heart, talking to Twitchin directly about the whole cussing thing. She says the cussing is fine, it’s the use of the ‘N’ word (and other forms of hate speech) that isn’t tolerated. I completely agreed with her, and wished her the best of luck in being able to get Kibble to attend TwitchCon. The man deserves it, for what he’s done for us.
Kibble does care for the community.. or, used to (after saying “Fuck it, I’m going to do things for myself!”) The Best Boi server, proves he cares. He didn’t have to do any of this, but he did. And after this, the future of this server is one big question mark. And it seems Jrock finally ‘won’.
He divided the community against itself. He fooled us, acting like he “cared” (when he didn’t). And we fell for it.
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But I (and many others) refuse to let this community die due to these actions. Now that my thoughts are my own again, we need to reverse the damage this has costed Kibble’s emotions. We can be a mature, civil tight-knit community, that watches eachother’s backs (by reporting people that break the rules to the mods (not Kibble)).
The drama needs to stop here. This is getting utterly ridiculous (even for me). Though I’m sure a few, aren’t happy with this decision. But as charms said; “there’s the door, get the fuck out.” Because we don’t need people that start drama here.
I know Ashi is probably considering breaking the alliance with Kibble over this (as he DM’d me and saying “i left”. And Jrock.. as soon as I get back on, he gets unfriended (and muted/blocked). I refuse to associate with him after this. I can’t stop Creepery from doing so, but I can at least ask him NOT to tell me what he says.
EDIT: Ashi has come back, not just to the Best Boi server (but the Discord too). I can only assume he had a discussion with his ‘hall monitors’, and they convinced him not to break the alliance. This is good.