This classic track from Led Zeppelin is how I feel about this game, where it has highs
yet (mostly) lows of struggling at this unforgiving game.
But, what the hell is even going on here? ..Why am I playing something so–so hated by fans of the series? Simply because of Kovo occasionally playing it with Nova and a few others. Just like Warframe, just like Destiny 2.
What Kovo told me, got my interest. That and boredom was setting in. Well, has been for a few weeks. It’s bad enough when I got full body yet I’m.. reminded of my health.
Enough about that though. So, how is Fallout 76 after all the work Bethesda has tried to do in order to make the game better (after all the lies and the “it just works” promise from Tod Howard)?
I really couldn’t tell you, to be perfectly honest; when I lost my ‘gamer’ status many years ago (possibly due to RL age). Really wanted to try out this game. But when the game finally went on sale in the form of being able to play it free for this weekend (started June 11th).. I wanted to back off on the idea. Still installed it, played it a bit. Customized my char.
…Didn’t want to leave my vault room. Decided to use the bed to sleep instead. And that’s when I noticed.. this.
Food and Thirst micromanagement. I’d turn this shit off if I could, but I cannot. Was thoroughly pissed at this. Bad enough I have to manage my carry weight. but having to also manage food/water?! What fucking kind of a game is this?? Uninstalled.
Kovo helped to clarify things, saying I don’t really need to worry about it. Felt I didn’t give the game enough of a chance and reinstalled, forced to recreate my char. Apparently you have to leave the vault to prevent this.
With Kovo now helping, I made my way out of the vault and set up a C.A.M.P. Kovo built a house for me near the once mighty Ohio River (still as muddy and dirty as it is now, but now with radiation). Looks pretty good, and I liked it. Can’t really remember everything else that happened, but we did run into one of Kovo’s old friends who gave me a sniper.
Overall… never have I played a game I desperately WANT it to win me over. But it seems to enjoy pushing my face into the dirt telling me to eat it and yelling “that’s all you’ll ever be!”
My biggest struggle has been simply, survival. Sure I have food, water, and housing (all thanks to Kovo though.. that I honestly don’t deserve any of it), but I don’t have a good enough weapon to defend myself with. I need something that its recoil isn’t insane. Not to mention the ‘stable’ 20FPS framerate doesn’t help with both my aim and my mood when I keep being swarmed.. trying to do my damn quests. Yeah, I can’t even do my starting quests.
This has lead to my friends helping me. Now normally you’d appreciate working with your friends, that it creates good bonds working as a team. But I– my brain is wired wrong. I see it as embarrassing having to be carried.. having to be protected. It feels disturbing as a soloer. The main reason why is, simply my fault. I have absolutely ZERO survival skills in Fallout games as I’m always using trainers to give myself infinite everything.
This is a kick in the head for me, and it reminds me that if I’m not ready for this BS.. I’m not going to be ready IRL either. That’s a very scary feeling incase a post-apocalyptic event like this were to happen.
Friends helped me to get some Power Armor (except it’s not a full set as that would be kind of too easy honestly). But the issue I’ve had since Fallout 4 is still there..
The HUD not fully fitting in the screen with a low resolution.
Not to mention still forcing me to use WASD when in Build mode. *facepalm* Yeah, that’s still a thing as well.
Again.. WHY am I playing this game, when it keeps kicking my ass?! Mainly, boredom. Just like blowing $1,500 on a new headset + trackers and not using them anymore as I feel there’s “no purpose”. It’s shiny and new, and now it’s not anymore.
Guess I keep hoping something good happens that gives me an advantage. I’ll even pay for this ‘Fallout 1st’ subscription service, as it gives me the ability to play on a private instance and has a junk storage thing with unlimited capacity. Plus, free Atoms.
Just, Bethesda… with all of this money, give me a chance to play my way! Ok? Don’t take my money and burn it! I want to enjoy this game with my friends, not be forced to say “I can’t handle this anymore” and feel looked down upon (even when they say “we understand”).
I just don’t feel it. I constantly feel judged, that I have no right to bitch as they deal with the same BS that I do (and they don’t bitch about it. They get it done). ..Why can’t I be like that?!