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Mods gone Wild (in a Discord group chat)!
“If you cared, where were you the past two months?!”
You become Ashi, and YOU become Ashi! EVERYBODY becomes Ashi!!
Dazed and even more confused
This community is like politics; it’s ‘manipulate or be manipulated’!
The price of ‘personal revenge’, is sometimes not worth it
I don’t know what to think, what to do, what to say, or even who to believe anymore. But today has possibly been an emotional rollercoaster so intense, you would mistake it as a Six Flags ride. And it came very sudden, without warning.
Most of the day though, involved me IRL defrosting my mini-fridge (as it’s not cooling right). There was a lot of ice buildup in the freezer section of the fridge. This took several hours waiting for the ice to melt (while having to suffer with it nearly 88*F in my room (couldn’t turn on the AC as I needed it to be as humid as possible to melt that damn ice).
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Creepery calls me as I’m getting crap out of the fridge. I’m assuming he wants to talk about what I said about Rocket, but instead it’s about world building. He asks about brushes, and how to hide shadows, and I was able to help him with that (with a few other world building related questions). Then he leaves, getting another call.
I had finally finished the edits to the previous post, and pledge allegiance to AUFF (asking to be a mod). Five minutes later, Charms unexpectedly DMs me, trying to get me to join Best Boi Phoenix. Having a feeling Rocket’s in there, I tell him “I’ll think about it”, thanking him for the invite. And I thought it would end there, until he asks if I’m aware of the shitshow with the mods. …At the time of typing this, I feel I should had stayed in Wurm, and let the closure come at me without any explanation. Probably would had fared a lot better (especially if I wasn’t contacted while I was heading home from the Impalong).
But I digress. So Charms and I talked, and he brought up something that my informant never mentioned; that of this ‘accusation’ of one of the named mods.. actually was considering suicide over being bullied by him and another mod. Wow. Yet he claims, it was all a ruse and attempted to explain his side of this story I (again) never heard– that the named mod “shouldn’t even be a mod, let alone the server owner, given how inactive yet volatile they can be”.
The rest of it, is so complex (even in text) to explain (while hiding names). But, I’ve tried my best to digest this into a form that should be simple enough to pronounce. In a sense, there was finger pointing, Charms being blamed of being “manipulative, bullying, etc” of something he’s innocent of. And then something about Rocket spreading lies that Charms was.. inlove with her ever since she broke up with Darius, and this made him literally call her “a crazy bitch” (and calling her manipulative, which is what Darius called her).
Half of me wants to laugh (about calling her a crazy bitch), the other half feels bad for him.
Then about 30 minutes later, I’m being called again. I’m thinking it’s Creepery, as he said he would call if he needed anymore help with world building. But this time, I was being called into a group chat (with BB Discord mods in it). I put my headset on, and ask “what is this about?” My informant, DMs me and says “you’ll want to hear this, it’s important” Then they start talking about bringing Rocket in.. after what she said in the BB Discord, you want her to come in here?! But I tried to keep my mouth shut.
This group chat was mainly about Creepery being mistreated by Twitchin, because of a simple question about the upcoming Best Boi plushie (if they’ll be affected by this). Twitchin seemed to be taking offense to Creepery’s question, treating him like shit (saying “you don’t seem to care for what I’ve tried to do for you guys!”. This isn’t good, and I can see why this is being addressed (and why I’ve been invited to it).
But as the conversation went on, it’s like suddenly Rocket’s getting her ass kissed. And this is when I went on the offensive of her words in the BB Discord (letting all of my anger out from the months my voice to make this community better, had been ignored). And… she fired right back (and harder), taking offense for my words (and leaving), which caused others (even Creepery) to say I was being bad by making her leave. I’m being blamed, for defending the community. As always.
So I remained silent for the rest of the conversation (while trying to DM my informant of what just happened, and seeing if he was still on my side).. and he ends up asking in the group chat instead of keeping it in DMs (by mistake), but said I would speak later, as shit started getting good.
Apparently, now it’s Charms that doomed the server (instead of Rocket). And they offer proof. Proof that is quite damming against him, to where he’s being called an ‘Ashi’. And this lasted for an hour (past dinnertime, where I had to warm my food back up). No wonder the community is falling apart– they seem to be using the term “you’re an Ashi” quite loosely.
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And the moment I nearly threw off my headset in disgust, was later on (where again they’re talking about Rocket, how she’s so innocent), and I go after her again (but this time using the picture I posted in the previous blog post, hoping I had her in a lie). She’s all “I don’t fucking care about how you felt about it!” And she seemed to was always be one step ahead and fired back, with one time (that I can’t believe she said this), was “if you care for the community, where in the hell were you two months ago?! You just disappeared from radar!” She also claims that she never saw me telling the mods about a problem.. because they’re CORRUPTED YOU DUMBASS BITCH!! I even tried to tell her about the conversation we had ingame, but she ends up ignoring it!
What’s worse, they were all defending Rocket.. even Creepery, my best friend.
I didn’t want to hear the bullshit and lies anymore (which is why I took off my headset), and since then.. I felt like an empty husk, yearning to be filled with knowledge that’s actually the TRUTH.
But, in reality, the truth has been staring right in my face since the plaque incident (but I’ve been trying to look away, praying it wasn’t true). And Rocket even said it: “We all fucked up”. The mods fucked up.. the community fucked up. We were all children. We could had made this community thrive, if we had grown up (and I’m even including myself in this).
Even Kibble, fucked up. And I say, he fucked up the most. If he had been paying more attention to the community…
It’s too late now. This is why Kibble is trying to talk people into leaving the dead community and join another one (or create our own).
As for the AUFF, I’m going to try to keep my head high and burn any Knuckles I see (when ordered). But I still can’t help but feel Klaus is obsessed with those glory days. Especially when finding out, that the Knuckles alliance (and vote) wasn’t rigged, which (to me) makes the AUFF have a questionable future. However, Klaus isn’t going to let drama ruin the community.
And that’s great and all. But personally, if (going by their claim) that the vote was fair, then to me.. there’s really no point to fight the Knuckles. But, since it’s fun, I won’t hesitate to do so. And it’ll be a great way to vent my anger.
Also, since I’m a mod, I’m in a position of power that I can stand up against the other mods, if I feel they’re turning into mini-Ashi’s. I’ll try my best, and refuse to let another server fall to manipulation and drama.