I honestly don’t know how to start this, though I’m sure people are turning toward me and pointing angered fingers, yelling “HE DIDN’T CARE IF THE COMMUNITY DIED!! HE WANTED THIS!!”
And no, I don’t. I never wanted this to happen. If you folks read my posts from before, it was due to how I felt the admins/mods weren’t listening to the concerns the community had for them.
I found out about this from watching the BB Discord (after saying how I wanted to see how this plays out). I’m seeing Charms making a huge paragraph acting like he’s leaving, which puzzles me, and also people saying how “discord going down”. Still puzzled as what’s going on. Why is everyone so sad, now that Kibble is in charge?
This kept on through the evening, where I eventually got the message.. and stood there shocked in a state of disbelief of what I was seeing. Immediately I went to the informant, saying “Wait wait wait… no. This can’t be true!!”
From what I got (from the informant and from ingame), Kibble (claiming he’s “being completely transparent for the community”) is planning to shut down everything official Best Boi in early September (the world, and the Discord server). According to the next to final meeting (here (turn up your volume as it’s pretty quiet)), it has to do with past and current drama (mentioning ‘TrashyPaws’). But a lot of people don’t buy this, saying there was more than just ‘drama’ being the main reason (such as the whole ‘forced Knuckles alliance’ thing the informant told me about).
He then goes on to say, that there will be a Best Boi memorial where the world used to be, and it’ll include all of his models. He’s also planning to shut down the Discord server.
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Hearing him explaining the importance of these smaller communities, I feel he’s right there. It definitely has been a shitshow all these months. The community pretty much got too big for itself, which attracted unwanted attention.
But if Kibble prepped for this better (getting mods like Charms who take no shits from troublemakers), I’m pretty sure the community would had been a better place.
But Kibble should had been more involved in the community since Day 1 (instead of ‘just the guy who made the models’). Feeling sorry for what the mods went through… what about your community, of what it went through? Don’t kiss their asses, just so you wouldn’t have to be involved in day to day things.
I can pretty much see people like Jrock sitting there, slowly nodding; knowing they’ve been right about this whole time. And I’m wondering if he wishes that Kibble could had proved him wrong. Obviously, that wasn’t the case.
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On one hand, I’m kind of upset over this (as I still remember the past of joining VRChat), and acting like I’m 7 years old of actually seeing what I would only see in a Youtube video. There I meant Creepery, who almost feels like a brother to me (why I praise him), and how I wanted to learn everything about the Best Boi’s. Just something about the model, I really enjoyed about it. It didn’t really resemble a well-known animal (so it felt alright to become one of them, and not be labeled as a furry).
On the other hand… I rather not go through all of the negative-filled blog posts I made how I fucked up in the Discord server. But that’s my brain, prioritizing the negatives over the positives. Many are crying over how the server helped them get through so much shit in their life. *sigh* ..The server did the opposite with me, creating more shit in my life.
One good way to look at this.. no more stupid meetings!
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I will still miss those good times on the server (when they briefly existed, like when Darius was single and played that hilarious music, and when Kibble was acting like Johnny Bravo). I met some good friends (and met their friends)! And that’s the whole point of a community.
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Then there one more thing I remember (yet I wish my 12 year old brain would move on from it)… is that smug bastard Kaelygon. He’s no longer in the BB Discord server (so I’ll never have to see his smug face ever again).
My brain is (finally) starting to realize how he got so popular. His experience with 3D modeling outside of Blender, is what made him famous. It’s obvious that avatar contest meant nothing to him. Yet.. the fact he was one of the lowest voted on (in the public vote), why all the sudden does nearly everyone want his model? Why kiss the tail of someone’s avatar you didn’t like.. just to spite me that I didn’t have the first dragon boi avatar?
I would had loved to release my BenieTheDragon Boi model to the masses… if it wasn’t in a bunch of attachable parts in Unity. Kael did what no one else did; took the Best Boi model and made a completely new Boi (using Maya). The face, he changed. He added wings. He added horns.. he lopped off the tail and added his own. He did a lot of impressive work on that model. Also, unlike me, he made all of those parts. I.. asked.
So that’s why I’m forever jealous. Fortunately it isn’t as bad as it originally was. I still like my avatar, though.
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UPDATE: Another member of the Discord server now knows what’s going to happen, and is quite upset. Two hours later, Rocket drops a highly controversial bomb on us. While some seem to be OK with the fallout (for some very odd reason), I feel quite insulted by someone who claimed she was going to turn the community around for the better.
*sigh* …I really don’t know how to properly word my feelings, to where I can look away from this and move on. For this person has betrayed my trust (and the trust of everyone who were listening in, when we were telling her how the mods weren’t listening).
If I had known that this person is literally a ‘second Ashi’, I’m pretty sure the community would still be alive. But saying “I wish I did this/that”, is too late.
How I found this out, was from talking to Darius (who used to be Rocket’s ingame husband). But, she used him as she used us. Instead of helping the community, she went on a mission to destroy it.
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Half of me feels like, I failed the community (like all of those other times), and I could had prevented this if it wasn’t for Wurm. But the other half says “no, it’s not your fault. It was never your fault. Rocket’s words are nothing but lies and deceit, trying to make you feel guilty for something you didn’t do. When in reality, there was nothing you could had done differently, for the community was doomed at the start to fail… with or without you.”
And to think, I once asked her for a commission to make BenieTheDragon Boi.. I feel good of doing it myself.
This also offers some closure. I cannot change what happened (that caused this death spiral), but I will do everything in my power to prevent this from happening again in the future.
Whatever Best Boi-like community I choose to join, I’ll make sure they know what I’ve been through (and to watch their backs). And this is why I chose the AUFF, to take revenge of the alliance by burning every ‘Best Knuckles’ I see in dragon fire. They will learn to fear (and/or respect) my name. And if I ever see Rocket again (as a Best Knuckles)… she will pay. She will definitely pay. For she has gone above and beyond the level of “piss off the dragon”. And this goes the same for Bonnie.
You killed my community. You killed my spirit.. you. will. all. die(in game)!
I also got promoted to GuardBois there (moderator). This means I need to be a bit more active (but not as active as I thought I needed when it came to the MRT server).
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In lighter news, this thing exists. Which, IMO, shows that when the official Best Boi world (and Discord server) close forever, the legacy (that brought me to VRChat), will never die.