I honestly don’t even know why I came back… oh right, I do. This fucking thing has been eating away at my mind all day yesterday, driving me insane and not allowing me to think straight. And that thing is feeling that leaving was a stupid thing to do, and that I should had just used common sense and not kill anymore non-hostile creatures.
Jack ISN’T going to yell at me for killing a hostile. If he did, this would PROVE he only goes after me. No, I need to make this right, and go back to the impalong.
Yet I just don’t know. I know I needed the opinion of another, but someone that would also understand me and give me life advice…
I asked Tulsi. Boy, have I really scraped the bottom of the barrel of people that will tolerate my existence, haven’t I? 😛
Told him word for word of what happened. He was calling Enki a monster once, by letting loose non-hostiles infront of cold-blooded warriors. Heh, in a way he could be right there. Those poor sheep. They didn’t have a prayer.
He also called Jake an asshole, and said I could be right of accusing him of alienating me. But after I told him how my brain is telling me to come back, he says “then come back?” and say he would come with me to ‘watch my back’. Oh lordy. But what do I have to lose? Plus he said he was available to come. He just had to take care of one little thing; which was creating a new him (yeah, it’s been a long time since he’s been in Wurm, and now his account has been removed for inactivity).
I wanted him to let me know when he arrived in Golden Valley. Instead, he lets me know when he made it to Tap Dance, giving me no time to pre-prepare for his arrival (to get B2 ready and stuff like that).
After trying to think of all the possible commands of inviting a person to one’s deed, I finally remembered the correct one. I asked in CA CHAT what was the command for him to teleport, and…he’s telling me he had already teleported to the deed (followed by “you dummy”). Oy vey. How quickly he forgets that channel is for ingame questions only.
I didn’t see him teleport, and went up to the token trying to look for him. Suddenly I see him in the farm, attacking one of my cows….REALLY?! We need to get ready to go, and you’re picking fights with cows?? I told him to stop and get ready to leave. Took a bit until he did, then I got B2 on and re-gathered everything that hasn’t been imped (or enchanted) yet.
This time I didn’t bring the cart (reasons being to hide it as it can be seen as evidence of being back here). See I’m trying to stealth return, drop my items in and then have DH sail away so Jake won’t see him (as my name is apparently a curse on this server).
All went OK until we got to the canal and docked slightly further than before(a corbita took my old parking spot). I had B2 lead Tulsi to the impalong, but he went too far (even when instructing him in PMs to follow him). Thankfully he wasn’t hard to track down and the two got up there.
Everything seemed to be OK here. Tulsi’s chatting with the impers and guests and enjoying himself, and I as B2 am renaming all my items under Beanietwo’s name(in hopes to throw off any suspicion). Jake was also there, but didn’t seem to care for me (even though he clearly saw DH in local).
B2 had to come back down and grab the lamps that were in the boat (forgot before that he needed to grab them), then had DH leave the impalong and ‘hide’ himself and the boat at the far off island near the server border, and logged off as him. I felt he was safe there from being spotted by anyone that remembered what happened.
Now only controlling B2, I tried to show Tulsi around (such as to see the dragon corpse, which he seemed non-interested in it, and more interested in the dead champ spider corpse(because that’s the way he rolls)). Little did I know, he was also ruining my stealth attempts by repeating everything I say in a private channel…in public chat. But I had the PM open and wasn’t paying attention. Thankfully, it seems no one else was either.
Tulsi is now getting bored, and tries to talk to Jake(in public). I’m trying to look for him, because I need to make sure he’s not close to where I can get DH back and drop off a few more items. Tulsi finds him before I do, and he’s trying to get him to ‘sign his autograph’, saying he’s ‘his biggest fan’. Riiiight. Whatever, that’s great Tulsi! Keep him busy for me! 🙂
….And then he says something that ruins my stealth attempt (and this time I see it). “benie told me all about you” I immediately say in Skype, “FUCK!!” and try to run away (yet running the wrong way, should had been running towards the switchback to the boats instead).
And then he says “was i not supposed to say that cause benie messaged me saying “fk!!!”” …I immediately log out as B2, and give Tulsi hell. I told him to PLEASE..PLEASE DO NOT..repeat what I say in private chat! I also felt it was over, my cover’s been blown, etc, etc, why in the fuck did I think this was a good idea bringing a 12 year old to a stealth mission!? I am EVEN MORE STUPID than I was for killing that damn bull!!!
Eventually I came on, hopefully (if Jake PMs) to make him think that “he (Tulsi) was probably talking about the wrong benie. There’s other benies playing this game. :)”
Immediately after I log B2 back on…
“benie came back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”
“benie tell jake all the cool stuff you said about him”
(choice words said in Skype)
Talked with him again that no, I don’t want to be friends with Jake. I was never friends with Jake, that all he did was help me find that horse several months ago. That’s it. And I hoped that would be it.. until,
“benie says he actually doesn’t want to talk to you”
(OH.. MY.. GO– Log off..)
(screaming internally intensifies)!!!
Stayed off much longer this time, trying to beat my brain into submission of WHY THE FUCK DID YOU THINK THIS WAS A GOOD IDEA to come back!? And also how in the hell I’m going to get my ass out of the fire Tulsi put me into. Started writing a long message, telling him to PM him and apologizing and stuff.
As I was nearly finished, he had already PM’d him. I was too scared to see what this disturbed kid had to say to this person. Completed my message and sent it. He tells me he already talked to him, and he had logged off. I’m thinking “OHH FUCK!!”
He told me that Jake thought he was an alt of mine. Oh yeah, totally. Like I would stoop this low to make a fool of myself in public. You really have no faith in me, do you? But I digress.
Honestly, this whole “stealth mission” was flawed ever since I told Jake that DH is my main. All I hoped to do as B2, to make it look like the actual name “Dragonhead”, was nowhere to be seen. Then maybe nothing would happen to me.
And also honestly, Jake seriously doesn’t even care about me (just as long as I don’t do anything stupid). That’s what I said before, and it’s still true. I just wish the bastard would talk to me, and understand that accidents happen. Because, maybe if he understood, this entire shitshow would had never happened.
..Instead, I’m too scared to face him head on (thinking he’ll say something that will make me want to leave again). I don’t know what it is with him, but he just seems to have this ‘power’, like a moderator. Surprised the guy isn’t -A- moderator, as he would be perfect for the job (as being unliked by me).
Okay, back online. Jake is gone, and that’s fantastic. So now I can bring DH back without feeling scrutinized. Tulsi also left. His reasoning is “y not”. I assume he was just bored. Got to the boats and made my way to Black Brigade. Someone I remembered from Cele’s kchat (‘Teeebomb’) saw him and said “howdy the Beanietwo o/”. Said hi back, no problem here.
Made it to BB (the abbreviation of Black Brigade). Someone named ‘Xcaliber’ saw him and waved, I waved back and then wondered if he was one of the villagers here (that maybe he could answer my dumb question). He said no, but was able to answer it with an equally dumb answer; “its not copy wrighted” “do what you want :P” So that’s um.. fantastic. Finally got the answer I seeked. Definitely gives me something to do when I get home.
Got DH over and dropped off some stuff. Luckily he didn’t recognize my main, and asked if “you folks” are interested in some high priced tools that are enchanted. I as B2 (while DH went back into hiding) said I would check them out later, and then went back to the impalong to throw in the stuff.
And that’s about it. Today I just really need to watch myself. Watch what I do, what I say, and overall avoid any confrontations with Jake. Because he’s dangerous, to my mental health.