If you’re been paying attention to my actions of the forum, you can see I haven’t been happy (as Wurm once again is showing its true colors that it’s a fucking grindy mess).
But with the ones that don’t know, the past two days I’ve been leveling up FS (currently it’s 43.55). I’m thinking, the higher I go, eventually I’ll be able to hit harder and make all mobs run in fear of the almighty dragon warrior with a ferocious bite from my longsword. 😛
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Except, it feels like all of this time..was for nothing. And that’s because, fuck you player, Body Strength is what controls your damage and not the Fighting skill!
My ‘Body Strength’, is 27. I’ve been told to “dig, mine, and chop wood” as the ‘best’ ways to raise it up, and I need to get it at least in the mid-40’s to be able to do ‘deadly hard’ attacks with my longsword. Yet I call BS, as my Mining is 45, Digging is 72, and Woodcutting is 38. Surely, that would had gotten it up to at least 30, for how long I’ve had this char (since 2009). But no. I have to do more.
Well.. FUCK..THAT!! I feel I’ve been grinding for years and have gotten very little in return (OK, I got paid a Rare 20c coin by the game for killing a wolf, and I’m happy about that).
I feel it’s going to take past 2020 until I get my Body Strength that high (or even close) at this rate! I guess it proves just how (un)dedicated I am to this game. I hate. knowing. it will take a VERY long time to get anywhere. I do realize, that this is literally real life in a nutshell. But: a game =/= Real Life.
The ‘Fighting’ skill, I felt like it’s going at a pace I can deal with. To go from 35-43? That’s pretty big! THAT kind of grinding, I’m OK with! But seeing such a low number take the speed of a snail to increase..WTF?! Who in the FUCK has the sanity to get up that skill?! ..Oh wait, PvPers do.
*sigh* I’ll never be like Metaldragon, or any of these top-notch fighters. Not with this whiny attitude at least. Getting to 70+FS? Possible. Yet what’s the point, if your maximum DPS is ‘extremely hard’? I want to be able to fight any mob out there, and come out victorious. I want them to FEAR me, for all the times they pissed me off.
Perhaps I’m just setting the bar way too high (to allow myself to easily pass under it and claim victory). I dunno. …I just don’t know anymore.
Adding Wurm to the expanding list of “this game isn’t meant for you” games? Yet when I look at the “this game is perfect for you” list, it has cobwebs growing on it. All games require effort to play. If you’re not willing to do the effort, then why bother playing?
Yet there’s also another (personal) thing of “I am willing to do the effort, as long as it’s reasonable and doesn’t take years to do”. Wurm falls so short of that thing, with the core being nothing but a grindy mess. Yet the only reason I still play, is;
1. The beauty of the islands.
2. Player housing that’s semi-customized (as long as you deal with the confines of a grid-based system).
3. Everything placed in the game was done by players, making it a living, breathing world.
4. Boats have a purpose, delivering goods and passengers (and you can go cross-server for free and at anytime).
5. Freedom to explore and to hunt.
6. No worries about another player killing you.
Honestly, I’m surprised the game has lasted this long (where other free to play games have fallen short). Hell, it’s almost as old as WoW (I believe by 3-4 years)! And its core hasn’t changed, unlike WoW. It’s still as punishing as it was since angry first showed me it), and I think this is what has kept it alive for so long.
And I swear, and this is ironic…it’s also what got me back in 2015. Again, as I said, I do enjoy a challenge (as long as it’s reasonable). It’s human instinct to be challenged, and to overcome them despite all odds. It gives a feeling of reward; of achievement. That’s always the best feeling.
But some ‘rewards’, I prefer to get them sooner than 5-10 years (these are the unreasonable challenges)… and now I’m just repeating myself. Bleh.
I just need a break from Wurm. After all that’s happened, yeah. The core hasn’t changed, and will likely never change. So hoping and praying for it, will fall on deaf ears.
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HUGE EDIT: Actually, I’m not leaving. At least… not yet. First off, everything I said above? I have NO need to do that! That’s only if I was to PvP (which..heh, is definitely not happening). Being told upping FS will help with trolls, and that’s fantastic.
However, there is something more important on my mind than my FS, and that.. is the location of my deed. Now, no it’s not being removed by the GMs for violating rules (or they need the area to build a canal.. (but that would be SUPER awesome if that came true)). This has to do with..me.
I thought I was going to be happy after the redesign. But no, I’m not. Especially not around the boat dock area. It feels so…. empty, and I don’t know how to fix it. And I can’t believe there isn’t a need in the market to give advice (and even help out with tough areas) in improving deeds.
But I feel this “I’m not happy to live here” feeling is the same exact feeling I had when I was living in JK-H (in Gold 2), of wanting to live on a completely flat area near a body of water.
I don’t really like living on high up areas. It makes the area feel.. isolated compared to everything else. I like everything to be in one area (and also having boat access). Having to go up and down ramps over and over.. is frustrating and tedious (with the speed penalty of going up slopes).
What makes this worse is DeedPlanner doesn’t have every object in the game (not even lamps). So it’s hard to try out designs. However, I -somewhat- got a person named ‘Seschwa’ that has no problem giving out advice for struggling deed owners(that live on their own with their alt and 11 year old friend who doesn’t really care for Wurm).
Oh yeah, forgot to mention, Tulsi.. well, he’s been having a bad year in school. And now he’s..refusing to read any of my posts without his name in them. So, here’s a shoutout to you, Tulsi! Also, to get to work on your house (that you haven’t even come on to start grinding your Carp up). 😛
Anyway, back to this ‘Seschwa’ person. They were mentioned by a person named ‘Hannaliese’ who was going to pass my request for advice to them (yet Hanna never got back to me about it). Also, ‘Seschwa’ is offline. So I hope to reach them in the daytime.
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And lastly, I’m currently having a 70QL Chain set made (un-enchanted, will have to ask someone for AoSP). And there’s also a lastly lastly. On February 4th, I’m going to head down south on horseback to ‘Magrannon’s Scar’ and actually help out their huge road project (through Surface Mining)! That’s going to be oodles of FUN (as I heard Surface Mining is hell on Wurm).
But by doing it, I’ll be a ‘somebody’ (and several more steps closer of being respected by the Wurm community)!
I think the death of Emeriss the Ferocious brought a change in me, to finally be someone instead of being treated as a “stranger”. Maybe some of her ferocity is a part of me, to not give up.