So, I might as well go over the latest for A8. To be honest, I’m thinking of quitting the project. Hard to believe, after I jumped at the chance to do another road, yes?
Last night was kind of the reason I thought of quitting.
Basically, I came back from dinner. Saw what we had to do. Suppoe wanted to have the road to split in two to get around this mountain and up to the top, to flatten it out for its next section.
I had an idea, to use the inner lanes as the two lanes that will be the split. Even had a plan on how to do the merge. RedBear was actually against this. So I had the two talk it over. Unfortunately, both of them don’t have Mumble. So we couldn’t talk this through completely.
They (not I), thought of a way to get the entire four-laned monstrosity up, do a 115 degree turn around and get it pointing to where it needs to.
As I said, I was never involved in the decision-making… since then I felt; “why am I even doing this? I’m nothing but a fraud.”
I feel like giving the road to suppoe. He fucking deserves it. His curves made A8 possible… not me. Though he told me he doesn’t want it, due to the fact he doesn’t come on that often. He also claims he doesn’t ‘plan’, he just does it. So Red is actually doing the planning here. Suppoe feels that Red’s curves are only making it worse on him.
I don’t know what to do. I doubt Red would want it, because he too would be the same way. But I just can’t do this anymore.
You may ask “why”. I’m used to straight roads. ONLY.. straight roads. I crack when I have to do a curve. And all A8 has been doing is breaking my spirit.
I mean, I CAN do curves. But only simple ones. I can do a simple 90* turn. That’s it. The problem is, the Mods don’t want those kind of curves. They want more realistic, wide-ass curves that take forever to plan out. Curves like suppoe can do.
There’s others that actually wish they could be like suppoe; to do curves without even thinking about them.. without even planning them. Someone even suggested that I make a memorial somewhere near A8 for suppoe. I told them it would be up to frozen if I can.
And he (suppoe) thinks I can be like him. I only know the basics. The BARE… basics. I’m not like him. I will never be like him.
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It’s done. The curve is done, and so is my employment to it. I’ve quit A8. I should had fucking NEVER agreed to it!! Infact, I’m taking a break from the server. I just can’t stand it anymore.
suppoe with his “you got to try to guess” .. I don’t want to FUCKING TRY!! I want to KNOW the angle is right! FUCK ‘trial and error’!! It’s just not for me.
Basically, what happened is we finally get the curve done. I’m happy. suppoe’s very happy. Red is happy. Also, we finally had a way of talking to eachother without using PMs. I wanted to use Mumble to do team-building exercises. suppoe couldn’t figure out what was going on with his copy of Mumble, I got fed up and asked both of them to get on /p1 instead.
I believe I mentioned this many months ago; they’re the project channels. Anyone can join them, even if they don’t have a project. Personally, I find this stupid. But, there’s nothing I can do about it.
So I got suppoe and Red both talking in there. Felt good. As I said, we got the curve done. While suppoe’s celebrating, I’m flying over what we need to do. I then see a road built where we were planning to do the split. I’m shocked, thinking “Ok…who in the fuck is building roads without my approval?!”
I found out it was Red. I was THIS close from kicking him off the contract for it, but I tried my best to calm down, even when suppoe was all (in PMs to me); “this isn’t going to work. I wanted to do a tunnel here. It looks messed up”. None of us had the balls to tell Red that he fucked up.
Finally I managed to fully calm down, controlling my anger and telling Red to please remove the roads he created. He even said he was going to if required. And so he did.
And then suppoe mentioned how the curve we did before was a mess, yet never told Red about it (he did tell me in PMs before of what to tell him. And despite me telling him over and over in P1 to tell Red what he told me, he never did).
Anyway, Red said that he uses the same program I used to do some of the curves of the first road of the New World. This thing. suppoe act like he was impressed, yet also seemed like “Ehh.. Benie doesn’t need to use this. He just needs to learn how to do curves like me.”(he never actually said this, but I could feel it)
Red had to leave for a bit to do something. I had asked suppoe if Red knew what to set the radius. He believes that Red had just guessed, like himself. This annoyed me a bit.
Red came back, I asked him and he too said the same thing, and suppoe is high-5ing him. This is when I went into one of my “deep depression” things. I’m thinking “Wow.. just wow.” It was like suppoe was trying to give me an unwelcomed wakeup call, that ‘trying’ is the only way I’ll ever amount to anything.
So I flew away from the curve, saying nothing to anyone. I just wanted to go home and think.
And that brings me to here. I told suppoe, who was AFK, that I had given the road back to frozen, and that I was sorry. Then I told frozen that I would give A8 back to him. I did find out earlier, that I couldn’t even give the road to him if I even wanted to. He wanted me to tell everyone that helped me this, so I told Red. He was a bit surprised, thinking it’s something he may’ve did.
And so… it’s done. Now I don’t have to worry about A8 ever again. And suppoe… :/ The last thing he said to me was “fine”, then logged off the server. Probably never to be seen again.
I could tell (if it isn’t obvious enough) he was very disappointed in me, giving up like this. But really, it’s best. And that’s what I told him before he did log off.
My “road king” days are locked in the Old World. This was when the forced European Motorway system wasn’t a thing (but really, I have no problem with Europeans. You guys are awesome in your own way). It was me in charge, and I did InterMaps. I still love I-0, because it wasn’t anywhere as twisty as A8 is. And I even did the curves in the Northwest section that was near Gund Valley (the tunnel).
I-0 was a straight East-West InterMap; a true Interstate. 🙂 Fucking loved working on that thing. I really wish I could hug it.
But building roads in the New World…. meh. Even if I was to propose that request I had to connect my island to the road network, I doubt it’ll get approved by the Admins.
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EDIT2: After giving it a lot of thought (and watching 8-Bit Game Time fail and fail again with a very hard Super Mario Maker level), I’ve decided that I want A8 back.
Because, I am a dragon. And a dragon NEVER… EVER gives up until they get what they want! And I, want A8 done. With this curve generator, I will be doing the curves for now on(with the help of Red teaching me how to make the program work in my favor). NOT suppoe.
Red last night, actually made me feel better. He said that he didn’t see what suppoe saw when he was trying to high-5 him. He actually saw what I saw. He knew I’ve been struggling, trying as hard as I could to learn how to do these insane curves.
With this program, I feel I can make these curves.
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EDIT3: Long post is long. I’ve been practicing all day, back at my island on doing the curves. Yet I couldn’t figure out what I was doing wrong for the inner and outer curves of the entire road thing.
I tried playing with the numbers the best I could, using lower numbers for tighter curves and larger numbers for more gradual curves. After awhile, I finally got the entire thing correct.
I had discovered something about the A8 when working on it. Something rather interesting, why it made doing curves so… hard. When doing the inner curves, you have to reverse-thicken with the program. Meaning, I found out the inner white curve was a 49, however, when using the ‘thick’ option, you got to use the blocks it adds, instead of the original blocks. You got to remove them in your mind.
This is due to the center line being thicker than a standard curve.
After dinner, I tried to teach Tulsi how to do curves (using that program). Unfortunately, he has the attention span the size of a walnut. Trying to keep him focused was more challenging than doing the curve. I wonder if this is what suppoe goes through, when trying to teach me how to do curves.
The funny thing about this, Tulsi “wants to” learn; so he can help me with the A8 (when I’m able to talk to frozen again).
Speaking of suppoe, he actually came on later today. Shocked the hell out of me. Told him to call me, that I “had something to show you. Something you’ll like”. He did, saw the curve and was all “no..way..”. I told him I’ve been using the program Red gave me to do curves, and said that I wanted A8 back.
Later on, suppoe actually figured out what Red was trying to tell me about “going in 2 when it gets tighter, and out 2 when it goes out wider”. Each block away from the center line, is the power of two. It wasn’t the way I had thought, however this makes things a LOT easier to figure out.
Then he had to go. Frozen showed up about .. oh.. 10-15 minutes later. I told him I wanted A8 back. He said “go for it”.
So cool, A8’s back under my control. A somber victory. However… I call this a victory in the right direction. A victory when I finally looked into my dragon soul and saw, I CAN do this. I WILL.. do this. I will fear curves no longer.
The A8 will learn to fear the wrath, and the determination of a dragon. The A8 will be completed before Christmas. That I can promise.