This is also an addendum of my previous post. This is also a rewrite of what I said.
Here’s a recap;
– The next GSM will be held on the 29th.
– The ranks will not be reset.
– Talk of new Mayor ranks.
– Does the community want the new world?
Seriously, though… why do I even give a shit? All I do is just build roads, and only have social interaction if I need something done that I can’t do myself. I quit being a Mod because I didn’t give a shit about the community anymore. Yet I am now? Why? .. Seriously, why?
Because I don’t want to see the server shut down, because Frumple said to me, that if the community doesn’t like the new world and they leave over it, then he might consider shutting it down.
Yet, I don’t care for the new world. Not because of “having to start over again”, but because he wants towns first before roads.
I guess the only reason I care for the server, is because it has given me something to do in my dull life; build roads. Yet all it has done, is stress me out. And stress is never healthy. Stress over not getting warned and screwing up to where I think I’m going to be yet nothing happens. Stress over making sure a road is done right. Stress over seeing a surprise interchange on my road that wasn’t there overnight. I don’t fucking need this.
Therefore, I’m going to do and complete my final project, and then I’m going to give away all of my builds to the community, then leave and never come back. That is the best thing to do. Relieve me of this stress. Undo my mistake of joining. Though it will be hard to wean myself away from the memories (mostly bad, only a few are good) I have for the server. Even when it closes (be it because of the new world or in the future), I’ll have to.
I won’t tell anyone about this. I’ll just do this plan, then when done I’ll send an email to the Admins that I give up all of the work I did on the server to the community, while also adding “I’m sorry for all the grief I caused the staff, with all the rumors and stuff”, then leave quietly. This way people will say “How come Benie hasn’t been on in months?” instead of “WHY?! WHY DID HE LEAVE?!”. There will be less of an impact on my departure.
I have no desire to ‘take the server down with me’. Less they know about me leaving and not looking back, the better. I will wish them the best of luck, as I did when I quit being a Mod. But tell them to not do what I have done, many times; spread my departure around the server.