I came back last night. I don’t “feel refreshed” as I hoped I would. Infact, I’m even more pissed than I was when I left. Due to my arch enemy, General_Rommel. One fight I feel just costed more than my job as head of roads. I feel I should had never came back. But WoW’s boring ’till MoP.
So anyway, I got the usual welcome back after getting everything updated on my end, to join the server. It went somewhat ok on my end, having forgotten of the new MultiMC update. But I finally got it.
Started playing around with the new 1.3 stuff; mainly the writable books. LD showed me how to simulate “putting” one of those books in a bookshelf. It’s quite simple, but isn’t perfect. The fact you have to use a cart with a chest to make it work.
The next night, I try to “discuss” a road that connects B1 to B2 using my road, with yeamanator132 (who built the road). He throws a surprise curve ball, calling me a bureaucrat. It was then I realized, I was no better than Rommel. Both of us wanted to do the roads our way. And both of us wanted to control what roads were placed.
And so, I voluntarily stepped down as head of roads, and gave it to Rommel. Who was shocked. But I wanted to tell him “Just shut the fuck up and take the title”. But the rules stopped me from saying that. Being a mod, I have to show an example for the server. But my actions after wasn’t anything of that.
I wanted to choke Rommel and cuss him out for taking what I loved doing on the server, away from me, and getting away with it. Because Frumple doesn’t want to deal with it. I wanted to call Rommel a piece of shit and every other thing in the book. But I forced to abide by the same rules I’m enforcing as a Mod, so I did my best not to cuss. And it ended up making me look like a tool. I never once said a cussword. Came close after yeamanator left by calling him a “dumbay”. Fortunately, no one was on at the time.
I remembered what ActualFacts did, and kept myself from “following” him in that situation.
I’m still fucking pissed as I write this. I’m the one that created the first road on the server. Frumple and Chief liked it, and xplay made me the head of roads. Then along comes Rommel and takes it from me, in the blink of an eye. And instead of Frumple being on my side and saying “you’re doing Benie’s work. Stop that”, he wants Rommel to work with me.
Well, that’s fine and all. But the bastard refuses to! He claims he will, but he just pretty much has his fingers crossed behind his back. And Frumple, he isn’t going to get involved. He just sighs.
I can’t work like this. And since I know Frumple is sick of this, the only logical way to end this feud, is to just give Rommel what he wants. He wants my job. So, he can have it. As well as the responsibilities that come with it.
What pisses me off more, is he isn’t phased over this. He’s actually fine and accepts it. Cause, he’s won. The battle is over, and he won. Because I had no support. They all turned their backs on me, saying “figure it out on your own” (in their own sense).
And he had the nerve, to ask me to help him out with the road to the MRT International Airport. He took my job. But I’ll be damned if he’s going to take my dignity.
What’s worse, is the things I said have possibly.. ok, definitely ruined my chance of being an Admin (not that I care). What’s worse, I may lose my Mod rights over this. That would be the last straw for me. If Frumple sides with Rommel, I’m done. But if he sides with me, then… I dunno. Rommel won’t be happy with it.
But if he doesn’t pick a side, but allows me to keep my Mod status, then I have to promise to drop this fight. And I will. As long as it’s not brought up ever again.
But if I lose my mod job over this. Then that’s it. I’m done. Done with the server. If he’s too blind to see if Rommel is deliberately trying to piss me off, then fine. So be it. He can have his peace on the server.
But after I go, I’m going to calmly say in an email to Frumple: “Well, if that’s it. Then.. there’s no reason for me to stay on this server any longer. Frumple, it’s been a pleasure to meet you. But what you have done here, has made me lose all my respect over you. I will however respect your decision to demote me. Good luck trying to find someone that will replace me.”