Since the 22nd, I have time and time again made a complete and utter fool of myself, not only to you guys, but to the entire Wurm Online community… and not cared what others thought of me. I felt they were “heartless” to not care for this dragon like I do.
But now I realize, I have to stop this. Since yesterday’s conversation in kchat, it woke me up. I stopped feeling sorrow for her and started feeling nauseated over my own actions. ENOUGH..is ENOUGH!!!
And that’s a good thing. It means I’m not too far gone from having to see a fucking insane asylum, over a stupid animal. It is not that big of a deal. So, no more of this “feel sorry for me” shit. The dragon dies tomorrow, and I’ll do my best to at least get her body. Garit promises me that he’ll make me a gravestone for her, that will have her name on it. However, this will be a semi-private funeral for her (with myself, Tulsi, and B2(remotely) there).
I plan to bury her, not where I found her, but near my guard tower. That way no one will have to place a new deed (and then forget they’ll leave mine in the process if they do).
And…as for my “reputation”, I’m going to earn it back the hard way, with hard work. I am going to -try- to grit my teeth, STOP bitching about Wurm Logic, and grind up required skills for next year’s Impalong. And maybe then, I can contribute instead of be another spectator. I’ll be one of them– someone you can count on to make you something. Be it a sword, a bow, a shovel. Whatever.
THAT…and ONLY that, is how I will win my respect back (after this mess that I caused). Not to mention I’ll finally be a contributing member to the Wurm community (instead of a burden).