Starts by passing out popcorn to all the cardboard cutout people that he has set up to watch his blog, as they’re the only ones that “watch” it
What a day it’s been. Glad it’s over. So I’m one year older. Too bad I’m not anymore wiser to boot. I still refuse to give up a fight(even though more than less times it’s pointless to continue fighting). All day yesterday, I’ve been getting Skype messages from some of the people I know on the MRT to wish me a happy birthday.
That’s the good part. The rest was “kind of good but meh”. And then there was the “I wish I could go back in time and stop myself from doing that” part.
There was also a matter of 1/4 of my keyboard’s keys suddenly dying on me this morning. My 5, 6, -. =, and keys were not working. Plus I couldn’t copy-paste anymore. Very frustrating.
So I’m using an old backup keyboard(that still works) where the / and P keys sometimes don’t work until I’m forced to pop them off and fix the pressure thingy inside where it’ll be in the middle again, for the keys to function normally. And I have to do that several times a day. Don’t know why. But it’s better than not having it work at all.
After I got that done, I tried to get my favorite resource pack to work on the MRT. Apparently using any Optifine version that’s not for 8.0 specifically… causes the client to crash for NO fucking reason. The crash log? It wasn’t very helpful, but it did give me some sort of reason.
Looked it up, and someone was having an issue similar with a mod. They told them to either update or remove it, and that fixed the problem. Because removing the file that’s causing the error will always “fix” the problem! So that’s when I tried an 8.0 ONLY version(the latest, which is “1.8.0_HD_U_D5”) and it went right in.
Now for the “kind of good but meh” part. Came on, and I’m all “It’s my birthday!”. The rude side of me just wants to roll its eyes and facepalm. Just felt really pathetic ‘begging’ to see Happy Birthday from people.
Anyway, I knew I probably wouldn’t really ‘celebrate’ it the way I really want to. Mainly, I wanted to celebrate it with the people I knew. And one of them even had the nerve to tell me “sorry i dont know you”. Was a bit harsh, but I shrugged it off. And then a tiny bit later, I’m being told how I’m “the god of roads” again. *rolls eyes*
Let me get to the point here. Narnia17 showed up and PM’d me, asking if this ‘ArdyDuck’ person asked me to help him with a road project. I wanted to say “Uh.. how? I’ve been gone for two weeks.” but for some reason I didn’t. Instead I questioned what exactly did this Ardy person need help with. Narnia said that Ardy had a “really big road project in need of help”.
So I decided to join in. When I got there and saw the road structure, I was immediately turned off. 6-wide highway in a rural area that doesn’t NEED to be that wide. Non-black stained clay road surface. Even the lines marking the lanes were all wrong! Yet this is EUROPE! I must think like a European.. not an American! I keep fucking forgetting, the road numbering on the server is all based in Europe. .. I’m already feeling sick to my stomach. 😛
Still… I persevered and did my best to help. Though this Ardy person was kind of a slavedriver. He seemed to not like me taking my time with placing blocks. This is why I dislike working for others. Makes me feel weak and pathetic.
That feeling continues as we’re preparing to take this road through a curve. Narnia makes it as I’m freaking out after hearing the word “curve”. Then I tell Ardy as he’s working on something else that “you’re going to need an underbelly”. And instead of respecting that I actually know what I’m talking about, he’s all “we’ll do it later”. On top of it, he wanted to take the lazy way out and fill it all up with grass instead of using pillars… meh. Whatever. Still got it done.
And then after we get the first part of the curve done (and flying around being bored), I’m asking Ardy if he has a plan to take the road (as I’m clueless where he wants it). And he says how he has the plan “inside da mind”. Not. Helpful. He did make a rough sketch where he wants the road.
We then get the other curve done. Ardy pays me for the work I did (which I never asked for) and then logs for his night. I’m actually going to come on tomorrow and see if I can help him further with this project(though I feel Narnia and I may had screwed up by accident). He may have a different road design choice than me, but at least he kept me busy doing what I really like doing on the server.
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Much later (and this is the “I wish I could go back in time and stop myself from doing that” part), I got Narnia to help me extend Ardy’s road to where it turns again(this isn’t that part, by the way). As I said, I want to help continue this project.
This.. is the part. I’m clearing out this tunnel and see how thin the ceiling of the tunnel is, and say “If Ardy was smart, he would take out this tunnel and smooth out the sides.” I say this as a “I hope he does” statement and meant no disrespect to Ardy. However, this guy named ‘MC_Dunc’ who would turn into a real pain in the ass, says “so ur saying hes not smart”.
Again, I meant no disrespect to Ardy with that statement. Even if he didn’t do what I thought was a good idea, I would be fine with it. His road. So I have to explain it to this kid, and he never responds. And in my head I’m like “well whatever” and continue with my work.
Almost a half an hour later, this new guy comes on. I’m feeling good, so I say (as a joke) “Hey, new meat. :)”. Once again, MC_Dunc steps in and says “benie thats rude”. I’m getting annoyed by this asshole, because there was a Mod on and he didn’t say one word to me. So yeah, got a backseat mod here(I actually never thought of this until the time I was writing this part).
So I PM this guy, acting like “yo what’s your deal?!” Of course I never said it like that, but you get the message. I ask him “Why are you jumping on me everytime I try to say something funny?”
Again, I’m being ignored. He’s clearly talking to others but not to me. So I pretty much threaten to tell the Admods about his attitude.
RIGHT…after I say that.. he responds! Almost as of a “NO!! Don’t tell them! I’m here!” response. He tells me how what I said wasn’t funny (to him), and how it was an opinion. An “opinion” he had to tell the entire chat instead of just PMing to me. Plus, he couldn’t had done it in a better way.
The rest of it… well…you guys don’t wanna hear that, right? You wanna hear me taking down this kid! At least… I wish it was like that. Instead… it… ok. Fuck you all. You wanna hear me cry in a corner? FINE! I fucked up! I made it worse!
I told him.. to loosen up. Because to me, he was taking it too literal. Yet when I look back(which I’m doing now and I hate myself) I could had handled it better. I should had respected his opinion. But I didn’t. I didn’t want to fall to some backseat mod trying to annoy the fuck out of me. That’s how I saw it anyway.
And it just got worse and worse to the point he was attempting to “ignore” me. And he actually thought he did. I was literally laughing my head off IRL. He was using all capital letters and stuff, just carrying on like a fool. Very humorous.
But seriously… I should had handled it better. This…this is why I will never be a Mod again. I cannot control my temper when I get super annoyed like that. When I get told off (even by my own parents), I let them have it.
Dunc did eventually calm down, after saying how “benie would not stop”. I really don’t want this conversation to EVER… happen again. And this…is another reason I’m anti-social.
Yet now I’m not sure if coming on tomorrow is such a good idea, because I feel I’m going to be forced to “talk” to the Admins about this.
Spoke to Narnia later when he asked me, if I ever wanted to be a mod again. Told him no “after what happened earlier”. And had to explain. And he says that sometimes in order to move on, is to say “I’m sorry, you’re right”. He never responded later on, when I told him how low it would feel to say that to the guy. It would make me feel, once again, weak and pathetic. Because I’ll know he ‘won the battle’. Seriously, it would. It would feel I gave up.
*sigh* Alright. I’m turning off the popcorn and drink dispensers and heading to bed. So go home!
Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day. If I just watch what I say before I actually say it, I’ll stay out of that mess again. But if I have to answer to the Admins over it… well, it’s definitely going to do the opposite of a good day. Though I doubt they would take the time to show up and talk to me about it, especially Frumple. It’s not that big of a deal.