Have you ever had one of those times, where it seems the entire world is against you? Sure you have. We all have once in our lives.
But what about when it feels like no one understands you, and they say you bitch too much? … I thought so.
Well. I got plenty to bitch about. And when I bitch, I usually have a good reason. First, an unfixable lock up issue that I have tried everything that doesn’t cost money, and a few things that do.
And I seem to be the only one that’s having this issue, which is sickening. Or no one wants to confess.
2nd thing. Well. This is what I went through before. It’s called “end game depression”. The feeling of not knowing what to do now since you got to the highest level possible. I did this as Level 60, 70, and now 80.
Lets see… there’s raiding. Instances. Rep grinding… and then what? OHH YEAH! PvP! Everyone loves PvP! .. except me.
Then what after that? Endless, repetitive grinding. Boring.
But lets just say this. Say you have the best gear for your character. You’re #1 in your guild. The enemy faction hates you because you’re too good. You’re always called to fight in every battleground in the game. You have an Albino Drake, and every companion in the game. And you’re also exalted with every faction.
In other words. You got everything good going for you… then what? Wait. There is nothing else. You’re bored senseless!
Well. That’s how I feel. Except I don’t have everything going for me. Once… just once I wish someone would come up to me and say “Hey. Are you alright?”, instead of getting laughed at, and when I turn to my ‘friends’ for help, they say I complain too much and ignore me.
I got no one to turn to. I’m pretty much on my own to deal with my problems. So, I thought of joining a friendly, but active guild and post on the WoW Forum.
But seeing as my post is falling down the pages… my hope of joining the guild I want is disappearing. So, I’m doing my last resort. Attempting to make a ‘fake’ guild called “Doesnt Join Guilds”.
I only got the guild crest right now, waiting on 9 signatures. But as I write this, I’m wondering if I’m making a right decision.
I mean, it won’t ‘fix’ my depression. But maybe it’ll allow me to think better. What I mean is I’ll be able to concentrate on getting rep up. And I won’t have to deal with the constant guild invites.
And there’s also a 3rd thing I forgot to mention. The fact I’m 80, I should be respecing to Survival instead of Beast Mastery for the maximum DPS.
But me with my “no! I don’t want my pet to die! I love him too much he’s like a best friend to me!” feelings, is preventing me from making the right decision. I have tried going Survival, and Norb died while I was trying to solo LBRS. And I felt heartbroken and confused.
It’s hard for me to get “it’s just a game” into my head. I guess that’s why no guild will want me, and everyone will always laugh at me. Because I’m so pathetic that I shouldn’t even be playing this game.
And then there’s the thing of joining a dungeon group. You’re trying your best to kill the enemy and your other party members are telling you to “hit harder”, then they find out you’re still in pre-EP gear and raise hell, then kick you out. And all you wanted to do was get a fucking quest done that couldn’t be solo’d!!
And don’t get me started on Goldshire, when I just want to rest. Yet that’s not the idea with other people, then they attempt to duel you and you know you’re just going to get your ass handed to you, so all you want to do is sit down on a fence and say nothing to avoid being noticed.
Well. That’s all I have to say. I wanted to get this all off my chest. But it doesn’t make me feel any better because there will be no one that will take my hand, say “everything will be ok. I will help you get on the right path. We’ll take this step by step”, and help me, and accept the way I am.
But no. That doesn’t exist in the real world.