“Where are your trip Wurm blog thingies?”

So where to begin with this? Two days ago I was supposed to be heading to the Pristine server.. yet I’m not. What happened? What caused me to suddenly lose my desire to explore?
Three reasons why, and I’ll discuss all three in order of listing;
1. Mobs, and how there’s so many of them. I think the last server trip, gave me nightmares with how many I saw in a small area.
2. Durability(QL) of armor/weapons, and no way to field-repair them.
(the big one)3. The price of silver coins, and burning through it on repairs (and having none for prem/deed upkeep).

Discussing the first one (mobs, or hostile creatures for short). I’m sure most of you know how much I hate being challenged (both in real life and a video game). I also hate PvE (and PvP as well). Especially when PvE feels very unbalanced..and holy heck does it get unbalanced if you’re on your own exploring.
I find having to wait for your wounds to heal… well, my 10 year old side feels this is unfair (as I’ve been used to just hiding in a corner to regen my health, or pick up a health pack)..in Wurm, it’s ‘RNG, RNG everywhere!’.
My common sense though, feels it is realistic as our own human bodies can’t insta-heal (it can take a few days for a standard cut to heal). In the game, it typically takes about an hour in real time for a ‘Light’ wound to completely heal (depending on how damaged it is at the start, and I think the type of damage also matters).
The other thing I hate about mobs, is.. well, the combat system itself. How you got to sit there until either you or the mob dies. Yet in ways I actually like this system (as people can’t say “don’t stand there and swing your sword until it’s dead! Git gud!”).

Now we move onto durability. The first thing has a lot to do with this, as you lose QL when you use the tool (like a sword). I get its reason of existence, and glad it does. Yet I don’t like how there’s no way to make a ‘field repair kit’ that would consume itself on use, but repair one item of that QL. I guess it would make the game feel too much like a single player game instead of feeling forced of interacting with other people.
Now, I had considered grinding up BS/WS and all of those other sub-blacksmithing skills using B2. But the problem is, that requires Prem time..and that requires money out of my pocket.

Let’s move on to the most important reason why I’m not going exploring anymore (at least… until I get more money in the bank). See, I thought spending $70 for 50s was a very smart move. B2 and I talked it over for a good half an hour, calculating how much my deed costs and how many times I would personally need Prem time in order to be able to level my weapon skills more, and he convinced me that paying it would work (plus it got me that huge axe (that I had to wait a week for someone to sell me one)).
If you’re unaware of why I did what I did, check this post I made in early last month, as it will explain everything.
The problem is I never factored in of having to hand over 4.5s every time I need my armor/weapons re-imped to 70QL (as everything is 50c an item). Adds up, doesn’t it? Here I thought I would actually save more money yearly, but really..I need more silver more frequently. I need a stable flow of silver to make sure I’m still able to do what I want to do.
I’m down to like, 15s. Prem time is coming up, and that costs 10s per month (with no option of going any higher than that except the Wurm Shop). So, that’s 5s left. 4.5 of that is taken away to re-imp my gear.. that’s 1.5s left. And this is barely enough to afford one more month of upkeep of my deed!!
This 50s was supposed to last me five months…I have barely made it past one month, and already my bank balance is going to take months to get back up to a more comfortable level.

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I can’t do this anymore. Yes, mobs are frequent (and equally annoying), but with good gear.. I can take them on. And I don’t mind giving someone 4.5s to re-imp everything. But the main issue is funding (also I will not start crying over “why am I paying for this game when I don’t use it the way most do(aka mass-crafting of gear and tools and sell them?”). And, I don’t feel getting the axe was a mistake. I feel that was a really good move on my part (feel it’ll come in handy in the future).
And before you all recommend that I just let my deed disband and buy Wurm Unlimited to ‘solve all of my problems’, it won’t. It won’t allow me to explore the other servers. Sure, it’ll keep my deed intact..but it won’t be on the server I started on. It won’t be part of the history I had for this game (and the people that helped shape it).

There is another reason to this, of why I’m not going to use Wurm Unlimited. In 2011, I told angry “I just don’t care anymore” of what happens to my deed or anything that belonged to me. I regretted that decision in 2015. Keeping that deed alive, is my promise I won’t let it die..not again. Will I eventually let it die if I can’t afford it anymore? *sighs*…That’s an answer for the RNGods of real life (or of something that would be next to impossible that it would ever happen (of Rolf shutting down the servers and stopping support of the game)).
But anyway, THIS is why I can’t just quit! It has nothing to do with the community(which shouldn’t come to a surprise since I’m anti-social).

So for now on, I’m just going to use my remaining silver to keep the deed funded until I get more money (and eventually upgrade my CPU/Motherboard/RAM to make Java run better on my computer). I cannot save up AND go on these server trips (by having to get Prem) at the same time. It just cannot work out. I need more consistant silver(as it flows like water out of my token and into the ones of sellers and people with years of dedication to get their skills up), and $70 is just too much for my needs.
I’m not doing that mistake again. I don’t care if I’ll be spending $200 yearly..at least I’ll have more silver at hand (because it beats working my ass off infront of a forge, making weapons for other people(and praying I actually get a good chunk of the market that buyers can see me)). No to that noise! Leave it to the professionals.