And this time it’s on an island that’s full of hostiles (some dangerous), and it’s ugly. But you must be wondering what lead up to this.
It started yesterday with angry finally ‘getting’ his sailboat from Ace. It turns out I was wrong. The sailboat was right there at Vorgon, but Ace named the boat instead of changing the owner.
So with that done, I asked him what his call is. He says we’re leaving tomorrow. So tomorrow comes, and I tell him I’ll prepare my alt to take my rowboat. He didn’t read my blog post about why I had to get my alt in here, and why I couldn’t just drag my rowboat.
Anyway, we wait awhile. Anayy’s not coming on. It’s getting close to dinner, so I told angry that me and my alt are just going to leave Vorgon and wait by the island for him (and when Anayy comes on) to come meet us.
After dinner we do just that, and head away from Vorgon, heading for the East coast of the server since from what I saw on the map, it seemed like it was the quickest route there. 1/4 up the coast, Anayy finally logs in. I tell him that we’re moving, and where we’re moving to.
To make a long voyage short, my alt makes it first. I had to break off from following him to get to Samling and deposit the 5s he gave me. Angry says to go to the Northeast corner of the island, so my alt does and meets up with Elshar and his alt who welcome him with open arms, a meal, and village access.
I begin to wonder if we’re actually planning to STAY here. But I was more concerned of thinking I was lost trying to find Samling. Compass said I was going the right way, but I just didn’t know.
Finally I found it, deposited the money and raced back to the island (literally. I was going near 18 km/h).
About 20-30 minutes later, I finally reach the island. Elshar was AFK at this time. Eating. My alt comes down to give me the meal they give him, then logs out.
A few minutes later, angry and his alt pop up in my local. I take this time to ask him is this actually were we’re going to live. He says “yes”. .. Wth?
What happened to the homestead he talked about? What happened to just me, him, and Anayy? He claims he’s already told me that we’re going to live here until he finds a place to settle down.
What the fuck was wrong with Vorgon then?! Is he seriously sucking Elshar’s dick for getting him prem? Seriously.. Vorgon was better than this….. dump. Plus it has a shitload of hostiles. This is not good for my fear of ingame dying.
Nor was when angry went all “LOL I’M A GONNA KILL THIS WOLF!!” and tried to lure it to me. I ran like the little chicken shit I am. And all he did was laugh at me.
And then there was this time where Elshar gathered two horses, tied them to a large cart, and had all of us take a trip around this Island Hellidise. All I wanted to do was just go back home, but didn’t want to look like an idiot to them so went on for the ride.
Elshar is a damn good fighter, I’ll admit that. But it seems he on purposely looks around for hostiles. And everytime I saw one my fear kicked into overdrive, and I want to jump out and run away.
It makes me wonder why I call myself a ‘dragon’, when I don’t fight like one. I’ve never met a dragon that was scared shitless of even a Young large rat.
I have always been an explorer, and a pretty good boater (wouldn’t call myself an expert.. not yet anyway). But never a fighter. If I can’t get around the hostile, I rather just forget about going there instead of risking of getting hurt and killed by one.
Why am I so scared of dying? I get very, very attached to the character I’m playing, and tend to protect him as I can like if he was my own son. So to the people who say “It’s just a game”, go to hell.
And I panic when I see a medium, knowing it will slowly and painfully kill me. Dying makes me feel bad, and depressed. And people that can’t understand that makes it worse on me.
Getting past that, I have to say that again, I’m stuck here. Well.. sort of stuck here. Now that I have two boats (but been thinking of selling my rowboat, or ditching it somewhere) I got a house already. A houseboat (how Borderland put it anyway). All I would need is a fishing pole and start fishing via the Passenger seats, and I would have all the food I would need, and never starve again.
Plus the fact it’s a boat, I can go anywhere in the server. Never have to be in one place.
Too bad I can’t put a Forge on a boat… well. Maybe an unfinished one. But that wouldn’t help me make nails incase I find a nice place by the shore I can settle down for awhile, and continue to fish.