Been going over your emails, good and bad I’ll read them all. Though I prefer more constructive criticism. Such as one saying to not try to be like Heelz and just be myself when it comes to posting.
Well, I just don’t like how I do it. I don’t want to just get to the point and then have nothing to say except “that’s cool” or “that’s a thing”. I want to try a professional approach, as most game news authors do it. They start off slow (such as talking about the genre in general or a place) and then work up to the ‘big climatic end’ which is the point.
There’s also been emails asking me a ‘really simple’ question, of why don’t I just quit WoW like Heelz did if I dislike it this much. And this is coming from the second and 3rd things I said in my time gating post.
And my answer is… well… I don’t want to feel that “it’s my fault” I’m quitting. Heelz had a pretty convincing reason, even though I tried to contradict it by saying “I keep praying they’ll change”. I do still support his decision, but I’m not using it as mine. I want my decision to be .. well, decided for me.
I want it decided for me by a game, or by something Blizzard does that is literally the same or worse than WoD and nearly all of their subscribers drop.
By leaving because “but BLIZZ… I don’t WANNA do your Mythics!!” feels childish and wrong. Even saying it as an example, is just.. no. I don’t want to leave because of “I don’t wanna”. I want to leave with dignity. I want to feel like I made the right decision (like Heelz). I don’t want ANY feeling of remorse.
Of course there’s the “if you’re not happy, why play” saying. Again, I don’t want to quit because I’m not happy. I don’t want to quit due to being a spoiled brat. I’ve played the game for so.. so long. If I had joined WoW at a much later date and saw this content, I wouldn’t feel like I’m leaving good memories I had with the game.
Back in WoD, I was fueled with anger. Here, I’m fueled with a feeling of unsure. As I said before, I want to do this content.. but I also want it to be reasonable. I don’t wish to do 80 dungeons to complete a quest.
Another thing, is if I feel I leave, I’m going to kick myself in the ass if something happens that is in my favor. Sure, I could just ‘take a break’ in this instance (by unsubbing and waiting). Yet it’s not as simple as “you can come back anytime”. Not when I get a monthly check and have it my only source of income for the entire month.
I can only come back on a specific day, to know that I’ll be able to afford the next month. And I like having bills come out early in the month (when I have the most money available to pay them).
Right here, is a perfect example of what I’m talking about. Note the number of players in the thread that are downvoted. Yet their responses…their responses are why I just can’t leave. That “there’s always another way around” feeling to most problems of Blizzard. Even I could just drop my fake Guild and go with an actual casual Guild, and maybe they could help me do these Mythics (so I can do what I want).
See, Heelz has already done everything. Yet he feels it’s just the same ole thing over and over and he’s bored with it. I have not. There is still lots to do. It’s only a matter of just..doing it. But I feel it’s just not worth the effort.
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So where does this leave me? Sitting on my ass trying to sleep my life away (and wondering how to bash my head into the wall repeatably and make it not hurt/put me in a coma), because I’m too bummed out to get myself to try any new games (unlike Heelz). Hence…why I haven’t been doing my job.
I still have that untrusting feeling of all games(no matter what genre). It hasn’t died since I had left WoD. That feeling of spending money and being utterly disappointed. Yeah. That thing I don’t want to happen– ever.
Of course you can say “EA does the same thing!!”, but EA never really bugged me until the Dead Space series (Dead Space 3) of removing the save points for waypoints (and also taking over the The Sims series with the utter stupidity of The Sims 4). And of course, who can get over that “O.O …well, Earth’s boned” cliffhanger of the DLC (that never got continued on).
Yes, EA shitted on awesome titles. They’ve been doing it for decades — that’s nothing new (and LOTS of people don’t like them because of it). But that’s the thing… they never developed these games. Blizzard, developed AND released their own games (and now has a pretty sizable collection.. yes, there are other games they made besides WoW).
See the difference here? EA has a HUMONGOUS base of people who hate them. Blizzard? ..A small fraction. However, that fraction is slowly increasing with every questionable design choice they make.
Once again, I honestly wish Blizzard would just stop trying with WoW, shut down the servers, and just stick with their more successful titles (Diablo 3/Overwatch/Hearthstone/and the Starcraft series). I would even congratulate them for doing the right thing (especially if they say “we realize this was supposed to be for the players, and we didn’t live up to this promise”).
I keep hoping Heelz shows games that I would be interested enough to just go on and break this untrusting barrier and go for it. I actually feel he could. This is why I’m going to be more active in his streams (something I never did).