As I explained to angry in Wurm yesterday. There’s a reason why it’s very difficult to break this obsession. Angry just doesn’t understand what MAKES me obsessed.
That’s simple really….
First thing. The fact dragons can fly. Flying is something humans have wanted even before the airplane was invented. But, why get into a metal coffin called a jet to go somewhere, when you can just sprout your own wings and take off like a dragon? It makes me… wish I was born as one. Just to say that they do exist and are out there, watching us.
The 2nd, their ability to breath fire and cast spells. This has always been something people in the past have feared about dragons. How a dragon can transform into human form and walk amongst us, learning our ways. But when it comes to have the power to play with fire. Who wouldn’t want that? Fire is powerful, dangerous, unstoppable, and unpredictable. Much like a dragon. Except fire can be ‘slain’ by it’s enemy; water. But water can also be defeated by boiling it with fire and turning it into clouds, where it comes down as rain.
This is something the people of China believe of when they say the dragon causes rain with his firebreath. Anytime I see fire, I think “dragon”.
Another reason I’m obsessed, is the fact dragons attack much like human Mages did in the past. In WoW, you can play with fire as a Mage. If you don’t know what a Mage is, they’re casters. And in the upper levels of a Mage’s power, is “Dragon Breath”, where you see the head of a dragon take over the Mage’s head, breathing fire at his or her enemies.
This just makes me wanna be a dragon, fly around and attack my enemies. This unfortunately is the hardest single thing that would need to be broken.
Well. Those are the reasons why I like dragons. And now, the reasons why I can’t break this obsession…
You see, this obsession wasn’t even classified as one ’till later on. It was pretty much spawned from WoW, and grew from listening to DragonForce and playing Wurm. But why it got so bad and can’t be contained, I will tell you.
When it came to my past obsessions, they where always based from one single refrence, such as a cartoon or something I play on my computer. This way, my obsessions where pretty much under control, and where healthy to say the least.
But…when it comes to dragons, this obsession wasn’t started from a single refrence, but from several. Soon it went past my control and took over my life.
There’s 3 things I thought of that I tried doing. One is willpower. Stop thinking about it and starve the obsession… I failed. The 2nd is to try to get re-obsessed from one of my previous obsessions. It just gets infected. And the 3rd, to just go after one of the many references and slay it by stop thinking about it. But all of them want attention like a pack of dogs.
I say the only GOOD thing about this obsession, is the lack of desire to buy/watch/draw everything and anything dragon’ish. What I mean by watching would be cartoons, such as “The Blue Dragon” on Cartoon Network, and other dragon-themed cartoons. Mainly because I dislike amine.
So, there it is in a nutshell. My obsession, and my attempts to stop it.