Day… hmm. When did I start playing again? .. Ohh yeah. February 25th. So this is Day 6 I think.
Alot has happened since I first got back into WoW. But unfortunately, my depression from Wurm has also found it’s way in.
Alright. How to say all of this without it being a omgtoobigihavetoscrollformiles entry…well. I’ve finally decided to go to Northrend today. It wasn’t bad. Nicer than Outland, but also more difficult. I was going “HOLY SHIT I’M GOING INTO A CAVE!!!” when the boat I was on went into a cave to turn around and get to the dock.
First thing I realised is, no meat vendor.
2nd, leaving the area is VERY, very difficult. There’s these guys called “Dragonflayers”, apparently corrupted by the Lich King. They look like norsemen.
3rd. The quests aren’t really helpful in knowing where to go and what to do. But maybe I’m not thoroughly reading them. I believe it’s due to my depression.
We’ll get to that later. Now I wanna talk about my new pet. Dino. I went to Un’Goro after I visited Northrend, to get myself a Devilsaur, thinking that my pet wolf, Norb, just isn’t ready, and I need something more.. bigger, and less… un-nerfed. Which is 1 reason for my depression.
Anyway, I searched Un’Goro. I couldn’t find the bastard for the life of me. All I saw was King Mosh, the 60 elite, and an Ironhide Devilsaur. I wanted a red one. Tried to tame King Mosh, kept getting feared halfway of taming.
Tried the Ironhide, and finally got him. (to make a long story short…) after a long time I finally went back to Un’Goro after learning I can freeze the mob before I tame it, and it won’t use Fear on me. It worked, I got the Devilsaur I want, went back to GS. The person that showed me how to freeze the mob saw me and cheered.
And now, we go straight do the thing that’s sucking all the fun out I once had for this game… depression. Why am I depressed again, you ask? I honestly don’t know.
I have quests I need to do, but I’m not in the mood to. Hell. I’m pretty much not in the mood to do anything, and I wish I knew why.
I guess it’s just kinda hard for me to focus. It isn’t so simple as being overwhelmed as I was when I arrived in Outland as a Level 60, and I still do remember that. People everywhere, trying to get to Level 70, and I definitely did feel overwhelmed.
Now… now, it’s not so easy. I didn’t feel overwhelmed when I went in Northrend… I felt weak. Nerfed. Not feeling like I’m ready. And on my own. Also, Northrend seems like it’s 1/4 smaller than Outland.
I’m suffering from VERY low self-esteem. And I wish there was a way to raise it.
I probably need to join a nice, friendly guild. But I don’t wanna feel tied down, having to participate in their raids and what not.
All I really want, is guidance. To tell me.. I….am… READY! But with the “fuck off and don’t tell me how to play my Hunter” attitude I feel, it will not be easy.
Not playing in nearly 2 years does not help the situation. Before BC was released, I trained.. hard. And I felt ready. Now… I feel like shit. And I have dominated countless instances. But that doesn’t seem to get my self-esteem back. I lack the enjoyment of questing I once had.