So many mods, not enough time / “Look at Benie staring.. menacingly.”

Hmm. Let’s see -GAMES-, check. PC, check. ‘Other’.. huh. Guess it could be seen as
a ‘game’. Yep, good for me. Not sure for them. ..Oshi– this thing’s still on.
*clears throat*
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Alright. Let’s begin.
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So many mods, not enough time
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The first game is Minecraft. Got invited to join a new server from Ayana, my friend but also one of Kovo’s and Nova’s friends. This is a Modded Minecraft server. And the modpack is a ‘kitchen sink’ style pack. It’s called ‘Enigmatica‘. There’s a handful of mods that I’m used to (that direwolf20 has played). It’s designed to help people get into mods. At least that’s the idea. However, someone like Kovo doesn’t seem to understand this. It’s
all ‘German’ to him. Huh. Sounds like my mother when I (and others) try to teach her tech stuff.
Meanwhile, I’m having a god damn fucking nostalgia trip with all the mods I remember using in the past. “OMG it has X! ..We can make a Y!!! :D” and so on. Yet process has been ridiculously slow. I’m half expecting us to dive head first into this modpack, but Kovo and Nova are doing their own things. Kovo’s doing vanilla stuff, and Nova’s… making huge underground caverns with a fuckton of torches. None of them seem truly interested in this modpack as I am.
Then there’s Cave. He’s semi-nostalgic yet more of an explorer type.
And finally, myself (again). I’m too busy simping over these mods that.. I hilariously don’t even know where to start. Without direwolf’s videos, I feel so lost. I’ve been wanting to get into Tinkerer’s Construct but.. again, dunno where to start. Not to mention the other problem.. personally, is we’re not really in the best spot to be getting into mods. Especially with everyone doing their own thing, there’s going to be times toes are going to be stepped on.
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But now finally have some direction (a day after I first joined), but it seems it’s directed by Ayana. “We don’t need to use EnderIO when we have AE2” she says. Yet the only one that actually is trying to get us into this.. is Cave. Ayana can’t really play as she’s running the server, and that causes big lag spikes.
It’s a big mess of confusion. Kovo’s confused on what to do (again his mind’s too focused on vanilla), and Nova’s still making that large cavern that I honestly don’t understand why it’s even being made (and all it’s doing is causing lag). At this rate, there would really be no point of having the server up if everyone isn’t on board with what we need to be focused on.
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“Look at Benie staring.. menacingly.”
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During one of these instances (we’re all in a call), a familiar person to the server (TJ) joins us. This is someone who refuses to be known as cute. And it’s even more cute
when ‘he’ denies it (reason for those quotations a bit later). Kovo and a few others also decide to playfully annoy him to admit ‘he’ is cute.
Got to a point where TJ begins DMing me, RPing with snuggling and stuff. I’m not telling anyone what’s going on ‘behind the scenes’ as it.. well, totally didn’t turn into ERP. And well yeah, was definitely interesting. And one time when we were.. really ‘having fun’, I remember Cave saying in the call “Look at Benie staring at us.. menacingly”.
Remind you I was ‘having fun’ elsewhere.. *cough* and wouldn’t always move when more fun was happening.
…I tried my best not to say (later on when TJ logged off for the night (aka fell asleep) after feeling quite satisfied in my virtual arms) “well I just [RETRACTED] a femboy, and I enjoyed it!” in the call. Because oh lord the level of embarrassment I would be
feeling (especially Kovo’s reactions).
Friends with benefits > Looking for true love. Less of a headache, having the same
fun, and less of having to say no. …But, just remember to, ask for age before? That’s important too. Fortunately for me, ‘he’ is above that age. So, phew.