{"id":8612,"date":"2022-01-02T13:05:12","date_gmt":"2022-01-02T18:05:12","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/benies-blogs.com\/general\/?p=8612"},"modified":"2022-01-02T21:56:34","modified_gmt":"2022-01-03T02:56:34","slug":"what-an-interesting-way-to-end-2021","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/benies-blogs.com\/general\/2022\/01\/02\/what-an-interesting-way-to-end-2021\/","title":{"rendered":"What an interesting way to end 2021"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>The way I expected to ring in 2022 was do what I did before it came 2020; join the official NYC world made by VRChat with friends.<br \/>\nThere was one slight change to that, in the form of Mibit acting like he\u2019s doing what he\u2019s doing as a favor\u2014 him telling us in our Discord server of him \u2018hosting\u2019 a VRChat world called \u2018The Bridge\u2019. I kindly reminded him&#8230; that\u2019s not how hosting works (when it comes to VRChat) and explaining the truth (that he&#8217;s only the instance owner). Best thing about the conversation is him telling me \u201cI have VRC+\u201d and still claiming it&#8217;ll be coming through his internet connection instead of VRC&#8217;s servers.<br \/>\n*facepalms and chuckles* Ohh Mibit, the only ones that care about that are VRChat&#8217;s investors. You mean nothing to them, only your money. It doesn&#8217;t earn you brownie points with the VRC devs, nor does it grant you access to locally host a world. They can never do that as there&#8217;s a fuckton of loopholes with rights to host someone else&#8217;s world locally.<br \/>\n&#8211;<br \/>\nAround 8-9pm, I checked VRCX to see if Jero or Blender were on. Neither of them were, but I saw Kovo in the same world Mibit was &#8220;hosting&#8221;. I would have joined but I had things I needed to do, plus I had told myself I&#8217;d come on to count down for the new year around 10pm. Managed to join around that time. Due to the freeze\/black screen issue I&#8217;ve been having with my headset on joining a world, I took it off and waited 10-15 seconds. Opened my eyes and everything&#8217;s good. Put it back on and saw Raccoongamer talking to me. I also saw this black cat walking up to me and sitting down infront of me.<br \/>\nOh my gosh, it&#8217;s so cute! My cat person instinct told me &#8220;pet the cat&#8221;. Hearts came out of its head and I can hear it purring and being all happy.<br \/>\nAwwwww!! I wanted to stay with the cat for a long time, especially when I heard a video player playing Destiny 2 stuff. I&#8217;m thinking &#8220;ahh, I hear an orgy going on over there of them jacking off to their precious god rolls.&#8221; Still, I went over and saw the &#8216;orgy&#8217; taking place.<br \/>\n&#8230;Debated of joining the official VRChat New Years world, then Kovo came over to me and I thought &#8220;fuck it, I&#8217;ll stay. There&#8217;s a pool table here, so I&#8217;ll try to drown out the aggressive moaning as they mow down other players in Crucible&#8221;. And that&#8217;s exactly what I tried to do&#8211; focus on pool instead of them, playing by myself.<br \/>\nTime passed on, became 11pm&#8211; Atlantic Time. Fireworks went off for what seemed like 10+ minutes while I was trying to focus on pool. Was getting bored and waited for them to come back, and asked &#8220;so who wants to destroy me at pool and make me look bad?&#8221; Mibit who&#8217;s in desktop offered. But before we started, I nearly lost my shit when VRCX notified me Jero came on. Kovo was a bit surprised to hear me react like this. I told him that we&#8217;re just really close friends, nothing more (but again it sometimes feels like there&#8217;s more. Heh).<br \/>\nNear the end of the game (I was actually winning and just had to get the 8-ball in), Jero joined. As it was Mibit&#8217;s turn at the time, I ran over to go find Jero, but didn&#8217;t really know at the time how the world was set up, and went back to see the 8-ball was in a perfect position for me to pocket it, and I won. GG, Mibit. To be fair, he would had beaten me if he was in VR. Anyway, now I definitely had a reason to be here. I didn&#8217;t expect Jero to show up. Also, Nova was getting wasted. She approached and kissed me, saying she loves me.<br \/>\nWoo boy, yeah the alcohol is making her say funny things. Soon Jero showed up and I went from pool to cuddling him pretty much all night and morning.<br \/>\nBlender also showed up! Very happy about that. Sadly he couldn&#8217;t stay long as he was being invited to another world. He told me he was working on an animation for someone.<br \/>\nSo the only one I really got to spend New Years Day with once the clock struck 12am, was Jero. Definitely makes up from what happened when it became 2020 (back then). Really wish I could&#8217;ve spend it with both of them but.. ehh. Honestly spending it with Jero is, so awesome.<br \/>\nThere was a mirror here, where you can watch the fireworks. Used this to snuggle with him. TJ and Muum also joined, go we had a foursome snuggle party. Ok, I&#8217;m officially in heaven now with how much I love snuggles and cuddles (and kisses\/licks).<br \/>\n<img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"\" src=\"http:\/\/benies-blogs.com\/images\/VRChat_1920x1080_2022-01-01_01-13-59.376.png\" width=\"580\" height=\"326\" \/><br \/>\n#Wholesome #WasBlushingIRL\ud83d\ude0a #HappyNewYear2022 #WishYouWereHereBlender<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;m thankful for all the friends I&#8217;ve made last year (and especially becoming very close friends with Jero again). Without all of you, I honestly would not be where I am. Without online friends, I likely would had taken my life (especially after my father passed away and dealing with my mother).<br \/>\nHere&#8217;s to a better year&#8211; a year that hopefully COVID doesn&#8217;t exist and maybe one day being able to meet some of my friends IRL (and feeling like I have a purpose in this world besides &#8220;being there for my friends&#8221;).<\/p>\n<p>&#8212;<br \/>\nBefore I close this post, three things to discuss.<br \/>\n1. Nova had a pretty bad morning from being drunk, but thankfully she is OK. I sadly wasn&#8217;t there with the two when this was going on (was being cuddled and licked). I heard something wrong behind me and ran over to check if everything was OK. Kovo told Raccoongamer to talk to me about this in private. Damn.. <em>that bad<\/em>?<br \/>\nWhat I was told, is she saw the cat and suddenly saw.. her old cat and broke down in tears. Ohh fuck. Now I see why! And there was something about bleeding, like she bit her lip or something. Felt really bad for Nova, and really wanted to give her a cuddle. But I&#8217;m told that Kovo&#8217;s &#8220;got it under control&#8221;.<br \/>\n&#8211;<br \/>\n2. Nova got off a half an hour later. Jero went to go check on Kovo to see if he&#8217;s OK. I and the others followed him. He took care of it thankfully, then pointed at me and said &#8220;I need to talk to you in private as well&#8221;. Curious I followed him. Surely it was nothing bad.<br \/>\n&#8230;It kind of was. He&#8217;s starting to get annoyed with the whole thing of how I say they &#8220;jack off to Destiny 2&#8221;, and wanted to know if I have anything against them. I told him the truth that &#8220;no, I have nothing against anyone playing that game. ..I just, miss the old days. Because all I see is you guys playing either Warframe or Destiny 2, day after day, week after week. And I.. I wish I didn&#8217;t feel I had to exclude myself of what you guys are good at.&#8221;<br \/>\nBut there&#8217;s more than just that. And all I could really say is &#8220;it&#8217;s just&#8230; me. I&#8217;m sorry&#8221;. I&#8217;m pure irony&#8211; wanting to play with others yet also don&#8217;t when they want to play with me. And for some reason I get jealous that I can&#8217;t find my own group that doesn&#8217;t play Destiny 2 or Warframe all the damn time. The wanting to play with others clashes with how I also want to be alone. I cannot have both. ..Just wish I could find a group (or start one) with like-minded individuals.<br \/>\nFeel like I&#8217;m a &#8216;lost orphan&#8217; with no group. &#8230;I dunno. But I told him I would stop with the apparent harassment. (I&#8217;ll just keep it to myself, that way I won&#8217;t hurt anyone.. *sighs*)<br \/>\n&#8211;<br \/>\n3. Muum apparently discovered my website though Discord, from a picture I took of Stellaris (though the link). He liked all the things I wrote about him and found it quite interesting how I felt about him back then.<br \/>\nHim: \ud83d\ude02\ud83e\udd2d<br \/>\nMe: \ud83d\ude32\ud83d\ude10\ud83d\ude11\ud83e\udd26\u200d\u2642\ufe0f\ud83d\ude14<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>The way I expected to ring in 2022 was do what I did before it came 2020; join the official NYC world made by VRChat with friends. 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