{"id":8581,"date":"2021-10-01T14:02:20","date_gmt":"2021-10-01T18:02:20","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/benies-blogs.com\/general\/?p=8581"},"modified":"2021-10-04T02:35:39","modified_gmt":"2021-10-04T06:35:39","slug":"good-ole-fun-ruined-by-orion-useful-relationship-advice-from-kovo","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/benies-blogs.com\/general\/2021\/10\/01\/good-ole-fun-ruined-by-orion-useful-relationship-advice-from-kovo\/","title":{"rendered":"Good ole fun.. ruined by Orion \/ Useful relationship advice from.. KOVO?!"},"content":{"rendered":"

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\nGood ole fun.. ruined by Orion<\/strong><\/em>
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\nGoing to be skipping most of what happened last night, as it’s just filler and I rather give the TL;DR version. And here we go..
\nGot on near midnight, waited for Blender to get on. Saw someone I haven’t seen in awhile and went to go see them. Not much happened (just me talking and cuddling with them). The friend went to bed and left me along. The world is a movie\/sleep combo world and was checking the movie list. Started watching this interesting titled movie
\ncalled ‘Coronavirus Conspiracy (2021)’.. huh. Probably a short story about COVID and how it affected us all.
\n6 minutes into it, Blender joins. I can’t fully remember what if he said (if he had told me the reason why he took so long to get on), I asked him if he could see the video. He said yes, but it was paused for him. Then we had a ‘boop war’ (as I didn’t know what to say at the time). I let him win and asked him “do you feel satisfied?” He said “maybe, E!” Asked him “what would make you feel satisfied then?” He thought and claimed he didn’t know. I’m pretty sure I already knew what he meant but wasn’t 100% sure of it, and said “I guess you’ll discover it eventually.”
\nHe said “I know what it is, E!” Asked him “well then, what is it?” Again he thought, and said “let’s just say it’s something that’s blue”.
\nThought so. Hehehe! Played along and said “well there’s a lot of things that are blue in here.”
\n–
\nAfter I said that, Orion unexpectingly joins us. I had forgotten this world is Friends+, but didn’t really think much of it at the time. Blender doesn’t realize this and keeps talking about the thing that is blue. Thankfully Orion never heard him. I said “Orion’s here by the way.”
\nOrion starts talking to Blender as he usually does, never asking how I’m doing. Then he says to him “you don’t need to worry about Brayden anymore: he left the group.” Remember what I said in my previous blog post? This is when he said that and this is when I felt if Brayden commits suicide it’ll be my fault. If I had never told him what Blender told me about Shaw, he’d still be in the group. Actions have consequences.
\nHe also told Blender that he has the power to defend the group too, as he’s a brother. And of course he didn’t want to as he’s a pacifist. I stepped in and reminded him that he’s an adult and not a child anymore.
\nMoving this on, Orion asked about his yeen. Blender said he liked it but it had issues and showed it. Orion noticed how dark it was, then I said “well we could go to Room of the Rain to show your avatar better”. Noticed as I was saying that, Blender was shaking his head no at me. ..Why? That makes no sense. But Orion said we could join a friend of his and he went to do so. Blender seemed almost thrilled Orion was gone, not at all wanting to go see him. …Huh. I can’t remember what he said, but I do remember him saying that
\nI “have a nice ass”.
\nSaid to him “Heh, you can lick it if you want. But later, because we need to go see Orion.” I felt if I didn’t, he’d come back and ask questions.. and I rather not deal with that.
\n—
\nWe joined a friend of Orion’s. I.. mainly just kept to myself mostly. Figured when Blender gets done talking, he’d come back to me. And.. that didn’t happen. So I tried to do my own things… feeling alone, wondering why I even got on. Yet I was also trying to tell myself to put Blender’s feelings infront of mine. …It was really difficult. :\/
\nJust, kept wondering.. when is he going to actually come over and ask “are you doing alright Benie?” Nothing. He just kept talking to them. Orion didn’t even come over and ask me if I was doing OK. Noone did. Guess I should be used to it, as a loner. It.. still hurts though.
\nTo compound the problem, a famous Twitch streamer showed up that Blender wanted to see. This time I was by them, and I tried to tell him to just relax. And Orion embarrasses Blender right infront of him, talking about the CEC animations he does. In a way, I saw it as Orion saw it of showing him he has nothing to worry about. But at the same
\ntime (looking back at this).. that was very rude of Orion.<\/p>\n

Was heading to the mirror, and Kovo arrived. Oh man, here comes the life of the party. He came right up to me and asked if I’m doing OK. Told him I’m doing fine, but he knew something was bugging me.
\nLater on I’ve moved away from the mirror. Kovo’s talking random things to me, trying to cheer me up. All I’m doing is trying to lay up on my bed to give my back a rest.. while looking at Blender chatting with the crowd ahead of me. Again, just wondering if he’ll ever come over and notice me. Half an hour goes by, he still won’t come over to me.
\nWent back over to the mirror. Kovo came by, again asking if I was OK. I saw Blender showing up in the corner of my eye and he kind of comes over to me. Again I told him I was fine.. but this time definitely not hiding the pain I was feeling. He looks at Blender who looks nervous, saying “I know something’s going on between you two, but I’ll leave you guys alone. And Benie if you want someone to talk to, I’m here.” and leaves.
\nI watch Blender’s reaction, waiting for him to say something.. anything. He backs off and goes to talk to someone else, and then he comes back.
\nFinally I speak up, telling him I’ve been waiting for him to show up. He apologizes and then gives me a kiss. Feel somewhat better and we snuggle and french kiss… and Orion ruins the moment I actually felt happy. Why are you doing this to me, Orion…? The FUCK did I do to you?! Didn\u2019t say this. Fucking 3rd wheel.
\nHe leaves us, this time Jellyosaurus was with us. Blender said he was tired and needed sleep. I said \u201cwell get to bed then\u201d. He said \u201cI don\u2019t want to leave you here alone\u201d… I was about ready to say something I\u2019ll regret, but I said \u201cdon\u2019t worry about me. Worry about yourself\u201d. ..Lying when I said that. He\u2019s got a lot of nerve to say what he did.
\nJellyosaurus says \u201cyeah, you should get to bed Blender\u201d. Blender tries to downplay it by saying around this time he feels lightheaded. Jellyosaurus asks him “are you unable to keep your eyes open? Then get to bed.”
\nOrion comes back over, asking Blender “isn’t it about time for you to get to bed?”
\n
\nLeft the mirror. Got to an area of the world, feeling I just have no say anymore. I see them leave the mirror and talking to others, likely Blender telling them he’s going to bed.
\nTried to stay out of sight, wishing Blender would just go to bed. I should had gone further out to not be seen yet at the time time I– didn’t. I wanted Blender to come up and apologize for not being there without Orion butting in. Yet since he wasn’t, I said to
\nmyself “god damnit Blender, just go to bed already!.. Don’t make it harder on
\nyourself.”
\nOrion comes up to me and asks “did Blender tell you he was going to bed?” I lie and
\nsay “yes”, try to leave but Blender shows up. He comes up to me and says “come here
\nyou!” and gives me a kiss. Feeling a bit happy he actually cares enough to do that, I kiss him back. Then he heads to bed, and I head to a side of the world that is unused.
\nI lean my head back, the back of the headset resting on the wall and I try to go to sleep in VR.. the only thing I can do, as I have nothing to do. Blender is the whole reason I get on anymore, and having to put himself infront of me just sucks (but I still try to do it). I just don’t like how Orion seems to come in and ruin good moments with myself and
\nBlender, so I try to just sleep the pain away.<\/p>\n

A few minutes later, I nearly had a mini heart attack when “BENIE!!!!” is screamed into my right ear by Kovo. ..The fuck<\/strong> do you want<\/strong><\/em>?! Can’t you see I’m depressed?! I didn’t say that. He tells me Vale is coming back home. “..Well, nice!! That is awesome, dude! Glad to hear that!” I say, giving him a thumbs up for the good news.
\nHe leaves, and I try to go back to sleep again. 5 minutes later, I hear Kovo on my left asking me if it’s “ok for me(him) to be over here” as he’s creeped out over a
\nliteral LEGosi (Legosi from Beastars that’s just legs). I was OK with it, said “sure, I have no problem. This is the lonely area.”
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\nUseful relationship advice from.. KOVO<\/span>?!<\/strong><\/em>
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\nHe again asks me if I’m doing alright. Alright Kovo, if you insist. And he does. He took a day off of work, just to be with me. The reason is he’s been worried about me “for the past two days” ..Shit, man. I didn’t mean to make you worry about me for you to take time off work for this! :\/ He said it’s fine, said he did the same for Vale once.
\nSo, I explained what was on my mind, holding nothing back. Some crazy theories emerge from this, such as he thinks even though Orion is married.. he has feelings for Blender. I asked with a bit of shock “uhh.. isn’t that, you know.. cheating<\/span> on his wife?? He has kids dude!” He says yes, but it’s not unheard of. ..I dunno, dude. Orion isn’t the kind of person that would do that! He says it’s still possible, of how I said he(Orion) tries to interfere with my time with Blender. …I still dunno. Whatever vendetta Orion feels with me, I really doubt he has those kind of feelings for him. And I explained to Kovo that it’s more of a brotherly bond.
\nThe second theory, grabs my attention. He said Orion knows about my previous failed relationships, and is trying to protect Blender.. from me. And says “the relationship was over before it began”. Now this is more likely.. yet, why? Plus, Orion told me before he “stays away” from that kind of drama. When I told him(Orion) about Wolfdog, he said he wanted to stay away from that drama. So, now I dunno if that’s true either. I never told him about all of my relationships, and again Orion (if the news came to him) does his best to steer clear of it. He doesn’t cause drama. I believe him. …So, why is he doing this? ..WHY?! What the FUCK did I DO to him to cause this?! Is it just, Orion being overprotective? That’s possible. Because I still remember Blender telling me he too felt this.
\n–
\nKovo suggested I talk to Orion about this. …Yeeeeeeah that’s not happening. Not when he usually sounds pissed everytime he speaks. Not really comfortable when I’m like this.
\nFinally, when I told him about MIBIT and how he was always there, it’s like Kovo was encouraging me to go back to him. “Remembering your past relationships, he was different than the others”… he was. Yes. But I told him about how he overdid it with the communication thing– the scheduling and stuff, and how I didn’t expect it. Kovo understood me, but reminded me again how it’s better than what I’m going though with Blender.
\nThen I said “But remember, MIBIT was the same person that a week after we broke up, he wanted to get back together. ..I mean, you don’t do that. Plus, I cheated on him!!”
\nHe stopped me, saying “Nova did that.” I paused for a long time, remembering that she wanted to fix their friendship. Nova did the same thing (of the whole cheating thing).
\n..Oh, my lord. You’re right, Kovo! This never really crossed my mind, or even Kovo’s mind at the time. I was too ashamed at myself back then for not knowing an unofficial relationship = an open relationship. Kovo suggested that I should’ve asked Cute instead of Frost, or someone that knows about open relationships that could had saved me at the time. Told him “Cute sadly wasn’t on my mind at the time”.
\n—
\nAt the end, I thanked Kovo for shockingly helping me<\/strong> out with relationship advice. Hard to believe, Kovo of all people would actually know how to help. Plus he suggested I’d talk to Nova about Blender; get her input on the matter. He gave me a big hug and wished me luck. Thank you, Kovo. This was a very good talk. \ud83d\ude42<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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