Hey. Boy do I have a blog post to write this time. So much I can\u2019t sleep thinking about what I just did, how I felt I was ‘drugged’ from a lack of sleep and felt I was being taken advantage of.
\nSo let’s get this going, but with a bit of a pre-blog here.\u00a0 You saw my post a day ago how I still felt questioned about my relationship with Wolfdog due to a thing with donating money. Well after what I went through yesterday and last night, I feel my bond with him is as strong as ever. Infact all of the things I felt troubling, just vanished. And I’m so thankful for that. I was wrong, so wrong for what I said about him (but in a really good way).<\/p>\n
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\nAn old friend from Australia \/ \u201cThe Pack\u201d<\/em><\/strong>
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\nThis is a two parter.
\n“Do you mean a wolf pack? Didn’t you mention this before?” you’re probably asking. No my dear reader, nothing like that. Trust me.
\nSo, as I said before I watched Wolfdog play other games. One time I forced myself to ask him “are you thinking of playing VRChat tonight?” He said “I might be”.
\nThought “might?”.. but I relaxed and just did my own thing. Was reading old blog posts again and he pokes me on Discord to show he actually is playing. I strap on my trackers and join him, alone in this world. But it sounds like he’s talking to people. I see another one of those pool tables infront of me, this one having a different texture for the table. Wolfdog comes up to me, telling me he’s in a call with a few friends. And he tells them how he’s “with my boyfriend” and kisses me. I smile, but decide to play some pool myself as he’s quite busy talking computers to his friends.
\nTime went on and he tells me he’s getting invited to Murder 4. But he also tells me there’s someone there who is known to be jealous and to keep the thing between us “on the down low”. I decide to not join him, mainly because “I’m not going to a Murder world”.
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\nHalf an hour later he rejoins asking me why I didn’t accept his invites, and I explain to him why. Then he asks me if I know someone that goes by the name of ‘Sunset’ or ‘inari’. I was confused at first then said “oh yeah! I remember them!” Sunset Dutch, one of Kovo’s old friends back in 2019.
\nHe was in a call with him, and said that I looked really cute and other words, such as how this would be a good fursuit for me. Heheh. Ahh, good to see his humor hasn’t changed over the years. I miss him. But anyway, Wolfdog tells me he’s going to attend a county fair near him and heads off to do so. I get off and try to figure out what the hell happened to a certain mod I had that I was able to rename friends. Sadly it’s a mod that is outdated, so much that the VRCMG no longer has the mod available to download. Meh. A shame, but I’m not going to cry over it.
\nCame back when Wolfdog said they decided not to go. Joined him in a world with 12 people, and Sunset joined us. He quickly friended me after asking “do you remember
\nme, Benie?” in that iconic Australian accent. Hell YEAH I remember you! \ud83d\ude00 We talked about random things for awhile, catching up on the past.
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\nTalked to a few friends of Wolfdog there too, but I remember seeing a quite rare of a
\nsight; a red dragon\/Dutchie with the name ‘ultimategrok’. I thought “Hmm, I’d like to friend them”.. who knew that would actually happen when he suddenly came up to me and said “what a unique species” (or something like that). I turned to look and saw this red dragon staring right at me. Didn’t know what to say, so I tried to play it cool. Then he saw the tiny Wolfdog on my arm and asked “who’s that?”. I pointed to Wolfdog and said “that’s my boyfriend”.
\nHe got him over to us and asked “did you find this one?” And Wolfdog said “yes I did”. And he said “did you invite him to the pack?”
\nI was unsure what this person met by ‘the pack’, except the only thing I can thing I could think was some Discord group. Grok told him the fact he found me, he can invite me to this ‘pack’ and that he’s ‘the alpha’. And I’m feeling quite overwhelmed here. Joining a pack, of people I’ve never met? I’m not sure about this. Feels quite sudden. He keeps asking Wolfdog questions about me, such as “what has he been through?”
\nThen Grok looked at me, trying to assure me everything’s OK. I just didn’t feel it. This strange Dutchie hybrid coming up to me suddenly, trying to get me to join his pack. Like what the fuck? And it’s like none of my other friends were noticing anything bad about this.
\nGrok.. then gives me a kiss and says if I have any questions to come to him. I nod, still stunned he kissed me. Like, dude.. I have a boyfriend. But I thought “it was likely just a friendly kiss, don’t make a big deal about it” and shrugged it off. Though I noticed him following me strangely when Wolfdog was talking to someone else. Uhh.. why are you following me? This is getting a bit creepy.
\nI heard him ask “are you looking for Wolf?” I said “yeah”, but finding
\nhim (Wolfdog) talking to someone in private. He apologizes for being so clingy and stuff like that and I said “you’re fine” (to not make him feel bad).
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\nLater on, Wolfdog tells me he’s going to talk to someone. We exchange our “love
\nyou”‘s and he leaves. A bit later Grok comes up to me and talks about certain things. I tell him my concerns and he says to not feel overwhelmed. So I decide to join the server and he sets up my roles.
\nI go with this, feeling ‘proud to be part of the pack’. I felt welcomed, yet in the back of my mind I felt something’s very strange about this thing. Like, what exactly is this ‘pack’ even about? What is it’s purpose? Little did I know, I was right. More on this later.<\/p>\n
\nWolfdog shows his true colors<\/strong><\/em>
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\nI noticed how long it’s taken Wolfdog to get back with Grok going to play another game. Decide to enjoy myself with the shenanigans of my friends. One time I end up crashing but come back.
\nAs I’m having fun, I get an invite from Grok. Huh. Does he want to talk to me personally? Was unsure as I’m still having fun with my friends. Then Grok joins me, saying he needs to talk to me in another world and that “it concerns you”. ..I’ve only been here for an hour and it seems I’ve done something wrong, but wasn’t sure what. He said “all will be explained” before I went through the portal.
\nWent into the old Grass Night world.. holy fuck the framerate of 15FPS. How fucking unoptimized! He joins me and explains there’s a very serious altercation between Fusky and Wolfdog.. of Fusky trying to steal Wolf away from me. I explained where I’ve heard that name before, from a group call. I know Fusky and Wolf are friends, but I didn’t realize they used to be in a relationship.
\nHe’s got Wolfdog recording the whole incident. Now I will not link the conversation here as this is between Grok, myself, and Wolfdog. He looked at me and said “I can understand if you don’t wish to be here”. I said “Wolfdog was there for me when I needed someone. It’s my time to be there for him”. He says “that’s the spirit. You have the soul of a lover”. I mean, I better. My boyfriend is being harassed.. I have to be by his side.
\nWolf joins us 15 minutes later, followed by Fusky. Grok had warned me before, to prepare for hell. Dude, I’ve been through worse. You really wouldn’t understand.. when it feels all of your friends have turned their backs on you by just defending one friend. But that’s in the past.
\nI let Grok speak for me as he confronted Fusky. Fusky said he was “testing” Wolfdog and other choice words. I wanted to let Fusky have it, but again kept quiet. Since I crack under pressure, this is a wise decision. Fusky then left, and Grok tried to calm down from this.
\nSince then I felt my bond with Wolfdog, has never been stronger than it was there. All of my feelings of him possibly cheating on me? ..Gone. This proved Wolfdog is loyal to me. This proved Wolfdog truly loves me. And I was..I felt like crying in tears of joy, hugging and kissing him, and apologizing for how I felt in the past about him. But I didn’t say all of these things, only that I loved him so much and extremely glad he’s mine.
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\nWe went back to another world, him wanting to get his mind off of this and watch some videos. I was alright with this. Didn’t think much of it. ..Little did I know, Grok\u00a0 was setting up a trap.<\/p>\n
\nUhhh.. what just happened?…OSHI\u2014!!<\/strong><\/em>
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\nIt was getting close to 5am. I was trying to stay up and watch these Arma2 videos with Grok. Wolfdog on the other hand seemed like he was AFK for the longest time.
\nAs I said earlier, I was willing to watch three videos with him. After the 3rd video I felt it was off to bed with me. I explained this to him and it’s like he either didn’t listen or didn’t care.
\nHe kisses me again during the first video, and decided to kiss him back. Again I’m trying to see this as a friendly kiss and hoped<\/em> it would just stay like that. But after the third
\nvideo, he stares at me and says “I’d like to get to know you more, but I don’t want to be clingy”. When he said that, I was assuming ‘as a friend? Sure’. He kissed me over and
\nover, then said “I’m hard now”.
\nI lightly chuckle and pat his head, continuing to watch the video while looking at the time. I’m hoping it’ll end very soon, so I can get to bed. Almost halfway into the video, he looks at me again and asks “do you want to be mine?” ..Uhh. Dude. Do you not<\/span><\/em> see I have a boyfriend?! And I should<\/strong> had said this, but I felt as if my back was against a wall and forced to agree to what he says or he’d get pissed. So, I said “sure”. ..The next thing I
\nknow, he whips out his d!$& and tells me “whenever you’re ready”.
\nThis continued on, I prayed Wolfdog would forgive me. And then he tells me to stop and says something about wanting to fuck me in the ass. …Ohh Wolfdog, I’m so sorry. Please don’t be mad.
\nDuring this, he’s all “how bad do you want to be mine?” He says this twice as I didn’t know what to say, so only saying “very” is the only thing that came to mind.
\nI don’t want to discuss this any further….
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\nFinally in my bed with my headset and computer off for the night. My mind felt so shaken up from what happened.. I just cheated on my boyfriend. Couldn’t sleep, couldn’t think straight. Time passed as I laid in bed, trying to get any sleep I can but couldn’t. Discord on my phone tries to grab my attention, but I told myself in my head “..don’t deal with it ’till the afternoon. It’s likely Grok.”
\nKept being bothered and finally checked my phone. It was Wolfdog, telling me he fell asleep and that he loved me. ..I tried to contain my composure and said how I loved him too. Then I said how something happened last night.
\nAfter messaging him, I started to feel sleepy. Put down my phone and finally fell asleep.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"