{"id":7978,"date":"2020-04-20T20:42:27","date_gmt":"2020-04-21T00:42:27","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/benies-blogs.com\/general\/?p=7978"},"modified":"2020-04-22T14:57:12","modified_gmt":"2020-04-22T18:57:12","slug":"a-good-but-very-rough-night-kovos-demons","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/benies-blogs.com\/general\/2020\/04\/20\/a-good-but-very-rough-night-kovos-demons\/","title":{"rendered":"A good (but very rough) night \/ Kovo’s demons"},"content":{"rendered":"

A few things on my mind I wanna discuss (that’s why I’m here anyway). So let’s get to it..
\n==========================
\nA good (but very rough) night
\nCategories: <\/strong>‘Drama’, ‘Love Drama’<\/em>
\n==========================
\nNot sure how to start this one off, only with Jero trying his hardest to learn Unity (and refusing help from anyone). One time I literally got on my knees and begged to help
\nhim (saying “hun.. let me help you!!”).
\nNope, he’d rather learn on his own. He reminds me of Kovo in this sense (learning from experience instead of having someone show you how to do it).
\nI mean, there’s certain times even I would rather learn from experience. But when it comes to Unity and Blender… you better believe I would be looking for help (especially<\/span> with Blender. FFS. lol).
\nStayed with him ingame for 2+ hours listening to him learning how to adjust brightness with the emission (of the texture and model Kat helped him with), each time messing it up more and more. But if this is the way he wants to learn, I got to support him. Personally I would feel better teaching him, but that’s just me. And one time he gave up and we snuggled, him licking me and turning me on (almost delibertly).
\nLooked up the world we did it before. Finally found the damn thing (looking up ‘Youtube’ instead of ‘apartment’, remembering it has a YouTube player), dropping the portal behind him and saying “wtf, where did that portal come from?! Uhh.. Jero are you seeing this mysterious portal that somehow popped up behind you?! It’s so strange!!”<\/p>\n

As I was joking around, he went through.
\nMe;
\n
\nIt was awesome (for what the virus has done, him having to be quiet). And a funny thing happened when I finished and his headset froze. Like it was so good his headset couldn’t take it anymore. lmao
\nWhen he got back, we got back to snuggling. He also showed me that.. I was wrong about the model– Jero having eyebrows,\u00a0does<\/em>\u00a0make him more cute, especially with that really cute smile with the puppy eyes, and his little “mer!” sound he makes when he kisses me.
\nHe really showed just how much he loves me, and I ate it all up.
\n
\n======
\nSo that was the ‘good’ of the night. Now it’s time to talk about the ‘very rough’ parts.
\n======
\nKandy wanted to join us for some odd reason. Changed back to my non-lewd version, not really seeing an issue with him joining (and allowed it). Perhaps he just wants to chill with us.
\nHe joined, and I noticed something with him; his eyes. They were kind of the same color as Jero’s. He offered to change them, but I didn’t see an issue (felt they looked great on him and matched his avatar nicely). Jero however.. did. But he stayed quiet until Kandy left. He wanted to open up a can of woop-ass, saying how Kandy’s being an ass for ‘copying his eyes’. It completely caught me off-guard.
\nJero. Hun. Kandy didn’t purposely copy your eyes. It was only a coincidence, and I feel you’re being a bit paranoid right now. Yet he was like “no, he delibertly did this. Why would he come here? …No, he did this.” *sighs* I tried what I could to convince
\nhim, but also trying to back down my words (to not escalate the situation). He starts
\nsaying “I know he’s your friend”.
\nHun… it’s just eyes! You’re making a big deal out of nothing here! Then he tells me of one time that I joined to see him, and then Kandy joining milliseconds after (claiming he talked to me prior to joining).
\nAt this point, I was getting annoyed. It’s one thing to be paranoid, but it’s another to make shit up that didn’t happen! Yet he’s all “I’m not blaming anyone”. …Sure sounded like it there. And then telling me to “go alone” when Kandy’s on or something like that.
\n…WTF?! Are you telling me to stay away from people you don’t like?! You’re going too far here. But he thankfully decided that defusing the situation was the right course (by
\nsaying “oh well, I’m moving on by blocking him”. Still annoyed me though, and I fear this is going to get to a point I might be forced to leave him (over this whole paranoia).
\nYou do NOT tell me I cannot see people that are my friends, just because you don’t like them.
\nEventually I did calm down as I was waiting for him to return (having more issues with his headset).
\n==
\nAnd now we go to something more, personal: an unfortunate confrontation with
\nChris (not the Chris that was with Jero, the Chris that’s a pain in my side) that I so, so<\/em><\/span> much wanted to avoid (like COVID-19).
\nWhile waiting for Jero to get back, Chris wants me to join him in ‘The Cathedral’. I also noticed Kat is in the same world. Then I noticed later, Jero’s there (and is now inviting me to the same world).
\nI prayed Chris wasn’t in the same instance as they were, and went there.
\nThe world’s pretty big. Entered the courtyard and immediately<\/strong> went back to spawn as sure enough… Chris is there. Fuck. I looked around and found a really good spot to hide in. Though it was found by DJ, knowing exactly who I was hiding from. Someone else also found me (only asking if Chris was there and I pointed where he was).
\nA few minutes later, Jero’s now looking for me. I hear him calling for me by my real name. Wave out from my hiding spot saying “Jero, I’m over here!” He’s surprised of how well I was able to hide myself, and then tries encouraging me to talk to Chris. I’m trying to put my foot down, but he’s all “come on! He wants to apologize!”
\n*sigh*<\/em> …Fine. This better be worth my time. Ran over and well.. it was bad. Chris saying how he “tried to help” me by telling me to leave Kovo. Then him feeling he doesn’t belong and ran into the cathedral. Kat and DJ followed him, while Jero and I stayed behind.
\nJero then asked me if I wanted to hang out with Kat. Told him he can but I’m staying out here. He was a bit upset of my decision, but allowed me to do so.
\n–
\nI stood outside, thinking about the thing with Kandy and now this. Walked around outside hoping Jero would come back, but that never happened. At one time I saw a familiar person come from spawn, running around trying to look for the others. It was Nova. She was worried about Kovo, and she was also the driving force that made me say “fuck it” and ran inside the cathedral. The inside felt very The Talos Principle<\/em>, it’s pretty nice (with the floor reflections).
\nIn the middle of the cathedral (to the sides), is one passageway to the left. Went there and briefly saw Chris talking to Jero (before quickly turning back around). I saw Chris look my way a split second before then. Nova’s looking for me and tells me she found Jero. And I’m all “yeah, I saw him too”. She too knew I was avoiding Chris, and we talked about Kovo who was talking to Dusky in one of the voice chats in Discord. Then she saw Dusky jump in game and went to go see him in hopes to get answers on Kovo.
\nAs for me, I decided to walk over to a corner where I was able to hear Chris talking about me and Kovo. I can’t remember what was said, but I do remember him saying how he doesn’t care if I’m pissed at him. Then I hear him waving goodbye to Jero, saying “good luck!”
\nJero ran around the corner, seeing me coming up to him. Jero says how he knew I would be listening in, saying how he knew me that well. I nervously laughed, unsure what to say.
\nI cannot remember (fully) what he said next, but something about ‘being told more than he wanted to know about me’. Yet he was alright with how I apologized earlier for what he heard.
\nAs we talked, I saw Chris peek around the corner to look at me and then ran off. I knew at that point I had to deal with this problem, right here and right now. If Jero’s right about how Chris wants to apologize, then fine… I will hear him out. I went to track him
\ndown, yet he disappeared. Looked for 10 minutes, a random helping us and finding him. He tried to hide from me, but I saw his tail sticking through the wall.
\n“Chris… I’m not mad at you. Just saying.” I said. He wasn’t mad at me either, yet he warns me about his soulmate likely won’t feel the same. He also said something about Azure was surprised of the way I acted.
\nHe keeps telling me about his soulmate, how they’re linked, yadda yadda yadda. The way he explained it was really interesting; like a ‘hivemind’ link where the person can sense Chris’s emotions without even having to ask how’s he doing. Then as he was
\ntalking, Creepery showed up out of nowhere (to see me mainly) while Chris was having some sort of emotional breakdown of being ‘told’ to not speak anymore.
\nOkay, this is creeping me out. Jero, I need your warm embrace right now!! It was also very late for him (yet he wasn’t sleepy).
\nThe two ran into a portal (Creepery’s world). Jero tried to follow them, but the portal closed before he could.
\nAnd that is the end with Chris (of that morning). I felt like I needed to talk to Azure about this though. Jero felt like he needed to go to bed, and we snuggled for awhile. Whenever he smiles like that and does that “mer!” sound, he’s just… too fucking precious. \ud83d\ude00
\n—
\nEarly that morning, I was able to speak to Azure and DJ in a private world. Azure felt
\nChris “misunderstood” what she told him. Watched videos with the two for awhile.
\nOne time I was looking at
\nthen went to visit NapPie (with Azure going to bed and DJ falling asleep in VR), as yesterday was apparently his birthday.
\n==========================
\nKovo’s demons<\/em><\/strong>
\nCategories:<\/strong> ‘Drama’<\/em>
\n==========================
\nWas speaking to WildBoy, talking about the experience I had Friday of having to wait two hours for my food via DoorDash. He went to go see another friend, while I also spoke to SW18 about some things (his headset breaking).
\nI then noticed Kovo on (and joining the world). Oshi–! Looked around trying to find
\nhim, and he ended up finding me. His avatar was solid black (except for his hat, eyes, and emissions).
\nKovo’s been going through some very rough things, feeling once again that he doesn’t belong anywhere. Sadly there’s not much I can do for him.
\nSpent the rest of the morning with him until he went to bed.<\/p>\n

And there’s not much else to say. Again I’m sorry for the long delay in saying anything.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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