{"id":7974,"date":"2020-04-16T16:12:16","date_gmt":"2020-04-16T20:12:16","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/benies-blogs.com\/general\/?p=7974"},"modified":"2020-04-18T18:30:19","modified_gmt":"2020-04-18T22:30:19","slug":"i-still-live-yes","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/benies-blogs.com\/general\/2020\/04\/16\/i-still-live-yes\/","title":{"rendered":"I still live, yes"},"content":{"rendered":"

No, the Coronavirus has not claimed me (and it hopefully never will). I do apologize for the long wait of not saying anything. I mainly just got bored with blogging.
\nOf course a lot of stuff has been happening since I last posted. However, a lot comes and goes. Only a few are currently ongoing.
\nFor starters, Jero and I are still dating (and still planning to get married (in VRChat) next month). However, the location may’ve possibly gotten changed (and it’s not anyone’s fault).
\nKovo discovered what had happened to his world with the new Unity 2018 (or ‘Udon update’)… his world is pretty much broken (as for all the Dutchie NPCs there), and he sadly didn’t think about backing up his world. The reason is because it’s so large (and his internet is so shit), said it would take a long time to do.
\n==
\nIn other news;
\n–Jero has become obsessed over a figure known as the ‘hand banana<\/a>‘, to where I swear it has become his alter ego. It’s like, one moment I’m cuddling with him, the next he’s squeezing my ass and saying if I’m “basting that turkey” (infront of everyone). Or, him being hand banana, he’s tried to hit on Nova (even Kovo).
\nWith how embarrassed I get when talking about Jero and I doing it around others, my face has gotten redder than my sona. I’ve basically become Nova when Kovo messes with
\nher (in a sense). …I just pray he doesn’t get as bad as Kovo and pulls his dick out in
\npublic. *shudders at the thought*<\/em>
\nIf that’s not bad enough, I found out Jero is a switch (while I’m a top). And it seems with this alter ego, he wants to be the dom. …I pray this is just a phase, and he’ll go back to being my huggable green teddy bear (that I fell inlove with). \ud83d\ude42<\/p>\n

–Jero has a new avatar<\/a>, which almost feels like a spit in my face for what I’ve done for him. He got Kat to help him with Unity (something I have repeatably offered to help
\nwith, yet he never bothered telling me he was ready). If that’s not bad enough, he’s using the new VictonRoy Dutchie model (the one with better looking paws, better visemes, and of course.. eyebrows). A Dutchie with eyebrows, just looks… off. Everything else about the model looks really good, just… those eyebrows.
\nPersonally, I’m not really a fan of the model. I’m an ‘OG’ (aka ‘old school’) kind of guy. This is why I’m working on recreating BTD 3.0 using the 1.2b Dutchie model.
\nBut what stings is I did all that work for him (which he does appreciate), yet he still hasn’t uploaded that package file to his account. It makes me wonder, why I even did this for him.<\/p>\n

–And then, there’s something even more recent that has been going on.. something I’ve been trying to depress….. those feelings of doubt are starting to come back with Jero.
\nI dunno if he’s truly happy with me. This feeling keeps coming and going, but there’s also something else– if I’m actually starting to turn gay. I don’t even ‘feel proud’ of being bi.
\nI have felt this for awhile, since telling a lot of my friends how Jero and I are going to get married ingame (and them telling me I’m gay).
\nBut I had a talk with him, and I somewhat feel assured by his words. Why only somewhat? It’s what Wufy told me before of people saying they love you yet not really meaning it.
\nFrom what he claims, he loves me nomatter who I am. Yet I can’t help but sometimes
\nfeel, he would be better off with someone else (who isn’t a fucking coward of getting their driver’s license, and isn’t retarded enough to survive on their own).
\nA really nice thing he did (which was highly unexpected of him), he actually changed his Discord PFP… to us. \ud83d\ude42 This, is all my mind needed to completely erase the doubts.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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