{"id":7752,"date":"2019-12-13T13:01:47","date_gmt":"2019-12-13T18:01:47","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/benies-blogs.com\/general\/?p=7752"},"modified":"2019-12-15T13:51:43","modified_gmt":"2019-12-15T18:51:43","slug":"jeros-final-response-kovos-ready-for-his-future-his-own-love-drama-with-nova","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/benies-blogs.com\/general\/2019\/12\/13\/jeros-final-response-kovos-ready-for-his-future-his-own-love-drama-with-nova\/","title":{"rendered":"Jero’s final response \/ Kovo’s ready for his future + his own love drama with Nova"},"content":{"rendered":"

Two things to report, and both of them happened this morning. Jero finally responded to my really, really long message. So what did he say? Was it enough for me to finally move on from him (since June)?
\nThe second thing is a side of Kovo I hope to never see again (even though the wording is inevitable). Plus, him talking to me of his own love drama; dealing with Nova.
\nSo let’s get to it.
\n======================================================
\nJero’s final response\u00a0<\/strong>(and the firestorm that happened next<\/span>)<\/em>
\nWhat a very, very messy 48 hours it’s been. And at the end, it upsets me (and I bet them as well) that it had to end the way it did.
\nAnd if there’s one thing I’ve learned from these five long months (when it comes to a breakup); I cannot expect the other to tell me to **** off; I have to be my own voice of reason.. I have to be my own person that tells myself that.
\nIf I ever have those feelings for anyone else (where it becomes obsessive) and it never worked out, its time to block them and get that person out of my life… no matter how much it will hurt (or how many burning questions of WTF happened I have). Don’t expect them to do it for me. As Kovo has said in the past, I got to “be a better person”. That, is how to prevent something like this from ever happening again. It’s gonna hurt, yes.. but it will prevent from what happened to me of these messy 48 hours.
\n–
\nSo, let us begin of what happened: Friday morning (the same morning Kovo needed relationship advice), Jero unexpectingly responded to the crap-ton of messages I left him a week ago. I was hoping he would tell me to “please let me go”.. instead it turns into “I want you to be happy. I really want the best for you”. He said more than this, but that’s what it was pretty much compromised of. This told me he didn’t mind that I blocked him.
\n…But, I wouldn’t let it go. I wanted to talk to Chris (which was very unlikely as I knew I was doing it all wrong with these random (ghost) invites), so I asked Jero. And since knowing he couldn’t give me that info, I mistakenly scared him shitless by saying I know Chris’s ingame name and Discord. I was never wanting to scare him. All I wanted to do was talk to Chris and tell him to take care of Jero.
\nThe next morning, I got my wish (Chris spoke to me). And if there was ever a wish that you would regret making, this would be one of them. Because instead of expecting to see “look dude, what you did wasn’t cool. So let’s talk about this like civilized adults”… I saw someone who I felt any second was going to call the police on me, calling me
\na “stalker” and a “creepy fucker”.
\nDude, I can understand you’re pissed over me telling Jero like that. I would be too. But please understand that I didn’t have a choice because of the red tape Frost laid down to make sure there would be peace; I wanted to talk to you, to end this proper. Yet he never wanted to talk to me about it.. ever. But I tried to focus on what I’m here for, and told him to please understand that Jero’s the reason why me and him broke up. He wouldn’t believe me, calling Jero innocent. Dude.. you weren’t there!! Kept refusing to listen to me.. clearly this conversation is going nowhere (and it’s getting worse by the minute).
\nThen he tells me he’s going to block me. Told him I was going to block him and Jero anyway. He says “ok good, now leave us the fuck alone”.<\/p>\n

All the “why” and “how” I’m like this, cannot express how disappointed I am of myself I allowed my mind to go this far. Plus I felt this means I’m likely banned from seeing Wufy ever again (with Frost). Not to mention the distress I caused Jero can never be forgiven. None of this would had ever happened if I was a better person and learned when to let it go… ON. MY. OWN!!!
\nThough, it also revealed something when Chris was arguing with me. For him to say Jero’s innocent, means Jero lied to him about me (didn’t tell him of the doubts he caused me).
\nHe also, lied to me<\/span> about how Frost was the reason why he could allow me to talk to
\nChris. He(Chris) never wanted to in the first place. And if I had known that, I would had never wanted to talk to him<\/em> either.
\n–
\nBut lying or not, I should had let Jero go… months<\/strong> ago. Never again, will I allow this to happen. I have to be better than this.
\n======================================================
\nKovo’s ready for his future + his own love drama with Nova<\/strong><\/em>
\nBeen so busy working on blog posts that I barely had enough time to join VRChat and see what’s going on this morning. Yesterday I was playing this very odd game with a friend and friends of his, that felt like a spin-off of ‘Never Have I Ever’– answering embarrassing questions of yourself. We were also answering 18+ questions. Something was also going on with Fluffy, but I hope Aftershock helped with that when I told him.
\nThis morning was completely different (because every day is different in VRChat), joining off of Blue who was in Kovo’s world. Fluffy never joined. So everyone was tired and went to bed, and it was just Kovo, Nova and myself. The two were discussing selected games on Steam that went on sale due to The Game Awards that happened yesterday. Those sales have since ended at the time of writing this.
\nWith it turning into 4am, Kovo’s telling Nova and me he’s going to bed. Nova’s also going to bed. Then Kovo says something that surprises me.. he actually works up the guts to ask if they are a thing now over what Nova said to him. Nova though freezes up, and then leaves.
\nI try to help him the best I could. He feels he’s going to die at anytime (wondering why he’s still alive for having so many near-death experiences), and feeling Nova needs to let him know if she’s actually interested in getting more serious. But that’s not everything. Kovo also mentioned something about another.. whatever it is with Bella or something. I can’t remember exactly, but him having to make a choice (similar to Cola wanting to make a choice when he was part of the group, except for different reasons. But I digress).
\n–
\nThe conversation moved on, him talking again about how he feels he could kick the bucket at anytime. Then he says how he would give myself and Vale the world if something happens to him. Erm, I hope that’ll never happen in my lifetime (and I go before you do).
\nWe also talked about this ‘Minehut’ thing for awhile, him telling me I can go to their website and do my own research on it.
\nTold him I would love to throw Age of Engineering on it and have myself, him and Wufy play it (with others too, like Steve and even Fluffy). I can get up to 10 players on it. Show all of them the hell I went through last year (of making it all the way up to the Draconic age). Never played Minecraft with Kovo, so it’ll be a new experience.
\nFinally, he said he wouldn’t mind playing anything with me. Personally I wouldn’t mind doing a duo of Raft or ASTRONEER (just us, without Wufy. Just to see how it goes, as I feel Wufy does his own thing instead of being a team player).<\/p>\n

EDIT: This afternoon into the evening, I tried to help Kovo yet again with Nova. He nearly fucked himself, but didn’t really care what happened. At the end of the day, Kovo didn’t really get the answer he was looking for. Nova does love him, but wants him to move on. She stated she was ‘scared’ of herself, feeling she’ll make the wrong call.<\/p>\n

.
\nAnd that, is basically it. What a mess I caused for myself (and for others), all because I refused to let the past go… so I was literally forced to do so.
\nI just wanna move on from this, yet I can hear something in my mind being all “yeah, I BET you wanna move on from it! Guess what? You caused this, you are going to live with it for the rest of your fucking LIFE for what you did!! I hope you’re happy!”<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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