{"id":7607,"date":"2019-11-06T13:22:55","date_gmt":"2019-11-06T18:22:55","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/benies-blogs.com\/general\/?p=7607"},"modified":"2019-11-07T14:26:23","modified_gmt":"2019-11-07T19:26:23","slug":"a-messy-day-with-fluffy-wufys-opinion-of-the-group","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/benies-blogs.com\/general\/2019\/11\/06\/a-messy-day-with-fluffy-wufys-opinion-of-the-group\/","title":{"rendered":"A messy day with Fluffy \/ Wufy’s opinion of the group"},"content":{"rendered":"

If there was ever a day I wish I could rewind and do it differently, yesterday would be one of those days. Because it was an absolute nightmare.
\nAfter telling Blue and Red of what Cola told me and getting their responses, I felt it was time to ultimately tell Fluffy. The reason being, is if incase there was a shakeup with the group (and I actually wanted to be with Cola only), I wanted to make sure my son would know what’s going on. But before I explain what happened, we have to take a few steps backward in time to where I was dealing with Muum and Cola.. as something else<\/em> was happening that same evening (between Fluffy and a friend of mine who he was inlove with).
\nNow I believe I mentioned some of it, how he didn’t want to go to school as he was too depressed, how I had to get Aftershock involved (yet Fluffy thinks Aftershock’s against him for not loving him.. even though Aftershock never had any real feelings for him). It was a real mess, even while he was in school, how he told me he couldn’t focus over this person.
\nAnd one time he was even begging to join the group (again).
\n\"Bad
\nI also remember saying I talked to Cola about this, and he felt me that it would be a very bad idea for that to happen.
\n–
\nSo anyway, unknowing to me, he was still in talks with Aftershock. Can’t remember the day, but I was posting some stuff of him being with Garruk (and warning him that the guy has a BF). A moment later, Aftershock suddenly tells me to stop talking relationship-based things to Fluffy. Well, nothing like having someone kick you in the ass with your own shoe.
\nFluffy pretends he has no clue what’s going on. Don’t lie to me, you little shit<\/strong>. Yes, that was my attitude back then. I was extremely annoyed I got told off by someone younger than me.
\nHe was all “did.. I do.. something wrong?” It was during this time when I was trying to play Beat Saber in VRChat when Aftershock’s trying to talk to me. “Ugh, Aftershock. I don’t want to talk to you!!” while trying to focus on the colored red and blue blocks flying towards me. Finishing my song, I took my headset off, knowing I had to face him before he starts thinking I’m deliberately ignoring him (which I kind of am).<\/p>\n

I tried to lie myself out of when I said “I’m forced to understand” to Fluffy once.. almost admitting that at times I feel I may be treating Fluffy as an emotional punching bag. *sighs*<\/em>
\nIt went silent for awhile and I went back to my game. Fluffy joined when I was with Blue and Thresio, when I started getting invite from Aftershock to join him. Fluffy told me to go see him (with Aftershock also saying it). Then he said “before you go, I got to say something. Aftershock and I are no longer friends.” Uhhh.. surely you guys could had approached this better than to stop seeing eachother! But I joined Aftershock to see what’s going on.
\nHe told me it’s his<\/em> fault Fluffy’s like this. Yes it is, but not fully. I don’t know what exactly happened all of those months ago, but I feel he unlocked his lewd\/relationship-wanting side by accident.. which was like opening up Pandora’s box (and there’s no way to close it back to bring those nearly lost memories when myself and Fluffy were very happy just being father-son).
\nHe told me Fluffy would likely bring it up, and to just talk to him about it. Then I said my goodbyes and went back to the Beat Saber instance I created. Fluffy never brought it up though, and I’m glad for that.
\n—
\nNow with all of this out of the way, let’s focus on yesterday. When he was in school, I told him I wanted to talk about ‘something’ to him that night.
\nGot done with dinner and hopped on just for the hell of it, hoping to see Cola. No Cola all night, but I saw Fluffy in Cards Against Humanity VR. Odd, since he’s in Desktop. Got there and saw Fluffy playing with Acid, Chris, and a random. Put my hands on the glass and waited for one of them to see me. Soon it happened and I was invited in. Mmm, I didn’t want to play, but.. alright. Since you insist. So apparently I had to draw 10 cards instead of the usual 7. Enjoyed my time (only getting two ‘awesome points’) by pure luck. Felt I was better at CAH on the MRT Server (when Yoshi was hosting it). Mainly because it was MRT-themed (and I knew how people worked, so I knew what cards to play).
\nCAH is all about knowing who your friends are and how they act (and play onto that by making them (if they’re the Card Czar of that round) laugh and pick your
\nanswer).
\nHowever, it wasn’t all fun and games with Fluffy.. Chris accusing him of cheating by looking at my cards while I was talking to someone to the right of me. Fluffy left and told me in Discord how Chris “was being disrespectful”. Not to my eyes, as we were still in a game. You’re supposed to be staying in your booth.
\nHe did this again later on (and I caught him). Yet he claims he wasn’t trying to cheat, and left again. This time he tells me he was “going out” and “might leave fully to”.
\n\"For
\nI didn’t say anything until much later (when nearly everyone was leaving for the night). Ugh.. Fluffy, seriously. GROW UP!! Noone’s telling you to stay! So leave on your own terms. But he explained .. which stroke a cord with me and had me understand why he said this, but telling him “It can take awhile to get over, but you eventually shake it off and continue on going.”, he said I was right.
\nAnd that’s when he reminded me to tell him about Cola, and his response was different than Red’s, feeling what I should feel; I cannot make a decision.
\nI talk about Red and how it’s hard to be with him when I can’t understand his friends (and mentioned the whole translator thing). I then moved on from that.. but Fluffy
\ndidn’t, thinking I’m still talking about that subject, and said “i mean… i would be affended if i were to be used as a tool but thats not the point hes probobly upsest with hearing the same thing over and over ;\/”
\n\"Family
\n…Did he just say I use the group like a TOOL?! Yeeeeah, it didn’t go good. Wasn’t happy with him for saying that. I than found out he was still talking about the whole translator thing and how he assumed I was talking about Red of ‘using him as a tool’ when I said how I wish he was kind of like my personal translator.
\nHere’s a thought, son– next time, ask which topic are we talking about (so we’re on the same page)! That way, we’ll have no arguments like this one.
\nI was still frustrated with how Fluffy was trying to ‘run away’ from this instead of answer for his ‘crimes’, having to relax as a way to avoid preventing issues like this from happening again.
\nWhat the fuck happened<\/em><\/strong> to us!? We used to be so happy as father-son.. now all of that love.. feels, gone. Replaced with how I feel Fluffy is annoying when he says “I love you” and gets in my face with popping, kissing and mouse-like sounds.<\/p>\n

Something else that happened, but doesn’t have to do with me. Joined Blue in the movie world who was watching the original Harry Potter<\/em> movie with some friends I know. Fluffy joins but it’s way past his bedtime (and he won’t go to bed).
\n\"No
\nI don’t care anymore. Stay up as long as you feel, but thought he was going to stay up until the movie was over and would go to bed. When the movie ended.. he was still up. Okay Fluffy, what is it now? Nothing out of him. Again I went back to “I don’t care anymore” mode and hung out with Blue and the friends.
\nFluffy then posts a conversation with Blue of why he’s staying up, but I’m too annoyed at him to read it (thinking he’s trying to get Blue to make me feel bad). Blue sent me something else, saying the end of the movie.. reminded Fluffy of his RL father and made him very, very upset to the point he was crying. Not knowing what to say, I kept my mouth shut about it until everyone left but Fluffy and myself.
\nAgain I apologized, hearing him occasionally sniffle. There was nothing I could do to make him feel better. That’s when Wufy unexpectingly joined the instance and expected a happy conversation, but got something he didn’t expect. Then Fluffy left. He did say some words but they were too quiet for me to hear.<\/p>\n

———————————————-
\nWufy’s opinion of the group<\/strong><\/em>
\nI dunno what to say about Fluffy, or why I didn’t even go over and give him a big hug. I.. don’t KNOW. It upsets me! I just didn’t.. feel like I wanted to do it.
\nWhy can’t he find someone else that will be his RP father and annoy the fuck out of him<\/em>?!
\nAnyway, I told Wufy what’s going on with me and him, and he couldn’t think of anything that would be able to help him. Don’t worry Wufy, it’s OK. I understand.
\nThen I decided to tell him what Cola said to me, and what Red and Blue also said. His opinion was somewhat similar to Fluffy (that I can never make that decision), however he said without really saying (in his honest opinion, that I’m completely OK of hearing), I should had never formed the group, as he feels it’s too much of a handle if an all-out inter-group war for my love were to break out (which I also find extremely unlikely).
\nHe feels that I should had stuck with one person, but I kindly reminded him why the group got formed in the first place (so I would never, ever feel alone again by constantly feeling loved). Yet the only thing that keeps me from letting Fluffy in, is I have to feel strong feelings. And as of right now, I’m barely holding onto what’s left of our father-son bond (to where I actually feel annoyed having to say “I love you” to him, and not knowing why my mind is filled with so much.. dislike with him).
\nOh wait, because of all the times he promised to– *sigh* I’m drifting off-topic here. Sorry. Let me get back to this one.
\n—
\nRight, so when I told Wufy about Red and how I try to be with him, but how he(Red) hangs out with Russian-speaking friends, he said “that’s just how it is”. Even when I said how I wish Red could either teach me Russian, or maybe possibly be my personal translator, I saw him shaking his head no.
\nBut he warned me, to keep the group as-is. As in, never feel that Red’s going to get dangerously close to being removed from the group (because of this language barrier of his friends), as the others will not be happy with me.
\nAnd I most definitely will<\/em> keep everything as-is. I don’t want any wars happening.<\/p>\n

After that, we mainly talked about VR for the next half an hour until I could barely keep my eyes open (it was 5:33 in the morning). Thank you for being and listening to me, Wufy. You are a true friend. \ud83d\ude42<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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