{"id":7480,"date":"2019-10-04T16:35:51","date_gmt":"2019-10-04T20:35:51","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/benies-blogs.com\/general\/?p=7480"},"modified":"2019-10-05T15:10:07","modified_gmt":"2019-10-05T19:10:07","slug":"raymonds-surprise-and-the-discussion-that-followed-that-had-to-be-done","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/benies-blogs.com\/general\/2019\/10\/04\/raymonds-surprise-and-the-discussion-that-followed-that-had-to-be-done\/","title":{"rendered":"Raymond’s surprise, and the discussion that followed (that had to be done)"},"content":{"rendered":"

I dunno why, but I still can’t shake off that last Saturday\/Sunday thing. I feel the world made more of an impression on me than anything (of what true love really feels like). Watching Spirited Away<\/em>, I’m all “Holy shit!! There’s the island I saw Jero at!” That movie made so much sense to the rest of that world, almost like the two Manga’s are inter-connected somehow… and that’s so freakin’ cool!!
\nIt’s a shame though, of the way I was hiding from Raymond in that world. But in a sense I actually ‘thank’ him for getting me to stay with Jero.
\nYesterday in my homeworld (that I never expected to happen as I was bored that no one I really wanted to chill with was on), he dropped a bomb that completely caught me by surprise (which caused a conversation that was long overdue since that day).
\nDidn’t see Jero once yesterday, so that was semi-frustrating. So like I said, Raymond wanted in while I was talking to my son about something. Let him in, he was talking about his friends having lewd feelings for the bird creature of his avatar (that’s part of a famous video game), then he said “but I’m straight”.
\n
\n…Did you just say you’re straight<\/strong><\/em>?! First off, that’s a miracle that straight furries still exist. And second.. WHAT THE FUCK?!?! HOW can you say you’re straight when you enjoyed doing it with me?! Claims he was doing it just to make me happy.
\nNo, no no no, don’t do that. That’s not what I want. I want both parties (me and the
\nother) to be happy about it. Don’t do it just for me, do it because you want to.
\nNeeded to explain the purpose of the group. And since I didn’t feel like talking about it again, I decided to let Fluffy explain it. But all this did was cause so much confusion on Raymond’s part (not understanding what Fluffy was saying).
\nI was eventually forced to explain the entire thing, all the way to going over the ‘rules’ put in place to ensure everything goes smoothly. But Raymond still didn’t understand fully, of why I didn’t tell him this sooner. Thing is, he never asked, and it was my fault for not telling him either.
\nSo now he understands why he can’t really be in the group, because rule #5 isn’t met. And that rule is “Above all else, this group was designed for ones that love me more than a friend. But if I don\u2019t feel strong feelings for you, you cannot be in the group.”<\/em> Same goes for Fluffy. It may sound dumb to you, but to me.. if you’re going to be part of the
\ngroup, you need to have a reason– a purpose for being there (and not<\/span><\/strong> to ‘make me happy’).
\nTo me, it’s a simple request. I want to feel loved, and that’s not ‘dumb’ to me. Just doing it with me, isn’t going to win me over. I need to feel love and compassion that I cannot get from a normal friend.
\nAs for this thing about him being straight, he sees it as RP; how his character can change into different forms of itself (including being female). But I had to explain to him “I haven’t RP’d in many years. And when I did, it was controlled solo RP. And the only thing I RP now is of my son. But when it comes to myself, I don’t RP.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I dunno why, but I still can’t shake off that last Saturday\/Sunday thing. I feel the world made more of an impression on me than anything (of what true love really feels like). Watching Spirited Away, I’m all “Holy shit!! … Continue reading →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[25,26,2],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-7480","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-drama","category-love-drama","category-personal"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/benies-blogs.com\/general\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7480","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/benies-blogs.com\/general\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/benies-blogs.com\/general\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/benies-blogs.com\/general\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/benies-blogs.com\/general\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=7480"}],"version-history":[{"count":4,"href":"http:\/\/benies-blogs.com\/general\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7480\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":7490,"href":"http:\/\/benies-blogs.com\/general\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7480\/revisions\/7490"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/benies-blogs.com\/general\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=7480"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/benies-blogs.com\/general\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=7480"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/benies-blogs.com\/general\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=7480"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}