{"id":7475,"date":"2019-10-03T15:10:22","date_gmt":"2019-10-03T19:10:22","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/benies-blogs.com\/general\/?p=7475"},"modified":"2019-10-05T12:54:37","modified_gmt":"2019-10-05T16:54:37","slug":"does-jero-even-want-to-be-in-the-group-question-of-the-day","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/benies-blogs.com\/general\/2019\/10\/03\/does-jero-even-want-to-be-in-the-group-question-of-the-day\/","title":{"rendered":"Does Jero even ‘want’ to be in the group? Question of the day"},"content":{"rendered":"

This is actually a question I’ve been having for about two days, since I was with Jero the day after meeting him at that really cool world.
\nDay before yesterday when I was with Blue (and the thought of what Cola said fresh on my mind), another thought came of being scared I might be spending too much time with Jero to the point he might be pushed away from the idea of joining. But yesterday (since I still had what Cola said on my mind), I really wanted to be with him again.
\nNigh (who came back from TwitchCon a few days ago) helped me remind myself what I said in my blog about Cola. That, and how I feel fate is trying to force me to break up the group– to show me “nothing lasts forever”. But since I already discussed this in the previous post, I won’t be discussing it again.
\n–
\nMet Jero with a few friends and stayed until one went to go play another VR game, and the other needed to go speak to a few people. There we were alone, and I very.. very<\/em> carefully asked Jero how’s his BF doing. And the answer: not so great. Only one time a week does he really feel loved by this person, and the other times he’s too busy talking to other friends.
\nThen he mentions he’s going to block him on Discord or something of the sort “either today or tomorrow. Probably today. Then I’ll start all over.” …As if he had completely forgotten my invitation to join the group. So I very kindly and politely reminded him “the door is open” for him to do so, and all he said was “thanks Benie”, as if he wasn’t really interested.
\nNow in the back of my mind (after the first time I mentioned this to him), I had a feeling this was gonna happen– probably just heartbroken once again over it. Giving him
\ntime (a day or two), should help him to make a decision. Plus, I<\/em> need to accept if he decides he wants to go solo. Though I’ll still do everything I can to make him feel comfortable (and hoping he’ll reconsider if that happens). For this group has very few rules.
\n1. You must be willing to let me love the others in the group.
\n2. You must be willing to tolerate the others in the group (even as friends).
\n3. You are free to leave at anytime you find someone else in your life, but only if you let me know beforehand.
\n4. I do not<\/em><\/strong> expect you to ask “will you be my boyfriend?”, for this is a non-commitment group.
\n5. Above all else, this group was designed for ones that love me more than a friend. If I don’t feel strong feelings for you, you cannot be in the group.
\nI have no doubts in my mind Jero would have any issues with these rules, but I feel there’s something<\/span> blocking him from saying “I will think about it”… and I pray it doesn’t turn into another episode of “feeling doubts”.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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