{"id":7161,"date":"2019-06-30T13:23:10","date_gmt":"2019-06-30T17:23:10","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/benies-blogs.com\/general\/?p=7161"},"modified":"2019-06-30T23:07:22","modified_gmt":"2019-07-01T03:07:22","slug":"the-long-awaited-ingame-talk-with-jero-how-it-went","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/benies-blogs.com\/general\/2019\/06\/30\/the-long-awaited-ingame-talk-with-jero-how-it-went\/","title":{"rendered":"The long-awaited ingame talk with Jero – How it went"},"content":{"rendered":"

Despite what happened with Kovo and feeling like absolute shit for whatever I did to offend him, yesterday evening was possibly one of the best nights of my virtual life. I finally got to do what I’ve been wanting to do for weeks– talk to Jero about my feelings toward him, and him knowing I will never<\/span><\/em> treat him the way he was treated in the past.
\nAt the end, we both learned something about eachother, and why there still may still be a chance that we could be more than really close best friends.
\nBut, I<\/em> also learned something important when it comes to this; something I seem to overlook.. but not anymore.<\/p>\n

So let’s talk about that first. It came from helping someone I didn’t really want to see (from not knowing what to say to him). Yet, he already knew what had happened (Jero told him).
\nTalking about Frost, who still has my back. I was giving him a few lessons yesterday in setting up animations in Unity (how to do the eye close and puppy eyes). He’s telling me about Wufy and Blue on the side. A lot of it slipped my mind (as he told me a lot of stuff). All I can remember is himself and Wufy are speaking again, and he sees Wufy really wanted to change. But the night before (sometime after I went to bed for the night), he tells me the two got into an argument and nearly blocked eachother.
\nThen I told him about Jero. He already knew that Jero just wanted to be friends (having told Frost). And after I told him the reason behind it, he said to show that you’ll be there for him. Spend time with him, and give him some breathing room to make a decision on what he wants to do.
\n…And you know what? Frost is right. This is something I keep overlooking, but I will never do again. No more ‘hoping’ we can become more than friends; let it come natural. I need to talk to him tonight, and tell him what I’m going through.
\n–
\nLater that night, I wanted to get on VRChat and was finally free. Got on and saw Jero, and tried inviting him to my private world. Never got the invite, so I went to go see him (who was in a public instance of the Avatar Testing world). Caught him trolling everyone by playing a troll video there (and then acting like “I didn’t do it!”). Was hilarious.
\nFinally we went back to the private world and I showed him around. He soon realized he was here before, then I asked him “so where do you want to do our talk?” With so many options in this world, I decided to pick the spot with the campfire (while at night).<\/p>\n

He was confused on what the talk was, so I started subtle with “well it’s about.. us. But about what happened after.. well, you wanted to just be friends.” After I was done while also explaining I felt friend-zoned by him (of every time I tried to show I would never leave him), he apologized.
\nThen he explained a much longer version of the reason he had to. It wasn’t because of
\nme, it was because of what he went through. In addition to the abusive relationship, he explained the reason of the argument– a world where he was the admin, and he kicked all of the guy’s friends out over feeling abused by the guy’s friends. He also mentioned the one he used to date in that other game as ‘Don’. He then blocked everyone in Discord that knew him.
\nHe started emotionally apologizing to me, but I heard enough and hugged him
\ntightly saying “It’s OK. It’s OK. I understand now.” I then looked him directly in the eyes and said “what happened to you is horrible. But I swear Jero, I will never, ever do that to you. I will never make you feel small. I will always be there for you. But I will give you all the time you need to maybe consider.. trying one last time on an online relationship. I want you to feel safe, confident and happy.”
\nFor the first time, I finally felt what true love is like; working with the other, to not push it. Give it time. Give the other space. Let them trust you. And it was like, Jero actually understood who I am and my pure intentions of showing nothing but love to him. I absolutely do love him (with no regrets whatsoever). I feel so, so much more comfortable with him than I did with Wuffer. Jero is honest with me, and I absolutely love that.
\nI love how he was willing to sit down and allow myself to get this off my chest. He<\/em> even felt better, doing the same.
\n–
\nAfter a very long (TMI) and Jero laid down beside me, he told me he was glad to be out of that previous relationship, because he would had never met me. And after that, we had a true family fun time with our<\/span> son. We watched videos mainly, I gave our son a bedtime story of a brave knight battling an evil dragon that feeds off of emotions and makes you feel bad. It was, awesome. I want this to happen more often. It actually, felt real. Having an adopted son, with myself and Jero married IRL sometime in the future (if I live that long).
\nBut, let the future come. Let’s worry about the now, of being happy with the one I truly love (and how I can see that he is also happy with the one he truly loves).<\/p>\n

Today, I’m not sure what happened, but something changed in Jero. Something, extremely promising. He changed his profile pic in Discord.. to us. A picture he took of me and him. Never have I had this happen. Is this a sign he wants to be my boyfriend? Who knows, but let’s just act as we are now; really close best friends. I want Jero to feel comfortable if or when he makes this decision, no matter how long it takes.
\nJero is teaching me how to do an online relationship the right way. Him and Frost. And I can’t thank Frost enough for the advice.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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