{"id":7155,"date":"2019-06-28T13:43:26","date_gmt":"2019-06-28T17:43:26","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/benies-blogs.com\/general\/?p=7155"},"modified":"2019-06-30T13:24:04","modified_gmt":"2019-06-30T17:24:04","slug":"kovo-i-do-not-fit-in-and-i-do-not-belong-there","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/benies-blogs.com\/general\/2019\/06\/28\/kovo-i-do-not-fit-in-and-i-do-not-belong-there\/","title":{"rendered":"Kovo: “I do not fit in and I do not belong there”"},"content":{"rendered":"

Today, is going to be a pretty dark day in VRChat, and I’ve been flooded with DMs
\nasking “why? Why is Kovo leaving?!”. Kovo has decided that it’s best for him to leave the furry group. However, all of the work he’s done will not<\/strong> change. He’ll still be working on his world\/models, and keeping the peace in his Discord server. He just won’t be online that often (or hang out with the rest of us as much).
\nIn the simplest way to explain the reason, he ‘doesn’t fit in’. And as I said before, he doesn’t even see himself as a furry (yet he has made furry things, posts furry porn, has a furry RP son… etc). But one thing that he has made solid as a rock, is his sexual preference. He is straight, and no-one will break him from that (no matter how hard they try).
\nNow then, like I said, this is the simplest way I can explain his decision. There is a much more detailed reason (that involves me). What lead up to this main reason is.. well, a lot. It had to do with Cola, and Cyber. Since I’ve already posted about Cyber, I will post about Cola. I tried talking to him, hoping I would get a simple answer of why he disappeared that day. And he told me that he “panicked” when his full body stopped working. Hmm. Kovo did his own digging, and posted a DM with Cola saying he had a crush on him (which, did hurt a bit). Yet Kovo still wasn’t understanding that I wasn’t trying to date<\/span> Cola.. more like bang him (and Kovo kept thinking I was, putting me in a very embarrassing spot).
\n–
\nFinally was able to have fun with Cola, but Kovo said “did you have fun?” I didn’t know what to say to that, feeling “…really?! Are you that<\/em> lonely to know that goes on in my private virtual life?!” That and how I was trying to tell him that Scooby (who seemed to have a crush on him, even showing him images of his fursuit (showing the rear). But since no more pics were shown, I’m pretty sure he was only messing with him.<\/p>\n

It was there that Kovo decided that it was best he no longer be part of this foolishness. He never asked for guys to have crushes on him. And one time I joking said “DAMN Kovo!! Getting all the guys! Leave some for me, dude!” Again, just joking. But this is sadly one reason why Cyber left again. See, for some reason, he no longer sees himself as a guy, only as a transgender. When Kovo showed me the DMs between him and Cyber, I thought it was based on the avatar.. I didn’t know he was actually being serious of himself. And if I did, I would had never brought up that ‘joke’.
\nI would take it back if I could. But… I just need to be careful around certain people in the future that might take offense to it. Not everyone sees what is a joke, and what could be something that hurts someone (even when you never.. ever<\/strong> meant it to be). And this is why I typically am mute around others (even friends).<\/p>\n

.
\nEDIT, 6\/29\/19: So something came up last night, that I was never informed of (as it happened just then). Went to Kovo’s world expecting to hang out with my son for a
\nbit (after spending a lot of time with Jero). Noticed he was in one of his furry
\navatars, which surprised me. Didn’t he say he was going to leave<\/em> the furry fandom?
\nSo, what the hell is this? Did he have a change of heart? So I walked up and asked him directly, and heard others talking to me about something pertaining to him (forgot what it was), and Kovo gave me a very long stare and then said “too soon”.
\n…What did I do wrong?! Phoenix pulled me away from the group and told me how himself and a few others talked to him and said he doesn’t have to be a furry. I’m now getting frustrated, feeling I’ve been kept in the dark of this news and asking “why wasn’t I told about this sooner? I didn’t get a single DM from Kovo about this!” He said how it just happened a few minutes ago.
\n“Oh.” But I could only feel cold when I got back to the group. Even my own son wouldn’t come over. I had to get out of there– I didn’t feel welcomed anymore.
\nBut being in Jero’s warm embrace again (who I joined to get my mind off of this), made me happy. Plus I’ve been hanging out with Frost, Blue and Wufy. It’s like, this is my new group now (and I feel welcomed).<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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