{"id":7127,"date":"2019-06-23T13:19:56","date_gmt":"2019-06-23T17:19:56","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/benies-blogs.com\/general\/?p=7127"},"modified":"2019-06-24T20:57:08","modified_gmt":"2019-06-25T00:57:08","slug":"i-have-an-rp-son-a-fun-friday-the-russian-red-fox","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/benies-blogs.com\/general\/2019\/06\/23\/i-have-an-rp-son-a-fun-friday-the-russian-red-fox\/","title":{"rendered":"I have an RP Son! \/ A Fun Friday \/ The Russian Red Fox"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><iframe loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/h0m3f6O2cPs\" width=\"560\" height=\"315\" frameborder=\"0\" allowfullscreen=\"allowfullscreen\"><\/iframe><br \/>\n<em>&#8220;Love is needing, &#8230;.. to be loved!&#8221; -The feeling of my soul<\/em><\/p>\n<p>Happy random Sunday!<br \/>\nSince I&#8217;ve been in pain &#8217;till I started taking these &#8216;<a href=\"https:\/\/en.wikipedia.org\/wiki\/Anacin\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener noreferrer\">ANACIN<\/a>&#8216; pills, I haven&#8217;t had much time to talk about what&#8217;s been going on in VRChat last week. One thing to report is Jero rarely if ever gets online anymore. However, I&#8217;m not mad (as I know the guy&#8217;s been working hard). But something changed Tuesday by finding a sweet little guy who came out of<br \/>\nnowhere (and Jero thought we should adopt him).<br \/>\nThe Friday (when the pain in my teeth finally stopped for a bit), I &#8216;had a little fun&#8217; that evening with three guys (not all at once). The title of what I went through.. hahaha, would had been extremely weird (but hilarious). Something like &#8220;You get banged, and you get banged! Everybody gets ban&#8211;&#8221; I&#8217;ll just leave it like that.<br \/>\nAnd finally, one of these three I&#8217;ve been really having feelings towards of how nice he is. Except something is stopping me from saying &#8220;I want to be more than just friends&#8221;. Something in his life, he doesn&#8217;t wish to bother anyone with.<br \/>\nSo let&#8217;s start.<br \/>\n&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;<br \/>\n<em><strong>I have an<\/strong> (<span style=\"text-decoration: underline;\">adopted<\/span>)<strong> RP Son!<\/strong><\/em><br \/>\nTuesday, Jero was active that night. We were in The Box, cuddling. Suddenly, someone named &#8216;XxInsanityWereWolfxX&#8217; shows up (in one of Azure&#8217;s public avatars) and starts hopping up to get my attention. I bend down using Playspace Mover to say hey and it starts snuggling me. Dawww. How cute. Jero sees this and falls in-love with the little munchkin, and then looks at me and says &#8220;we should adopt him!&#8221; Seeing how I&#8217;ve never had an RP family member before (in any game), I didn&#8217;t hesitate and said &#8220;yes, definitely!&#8221;<br \/>\nAs the days went on (and Jero didn&#8217;t come on as much to hasn&#8217;t been seen on since Thursday), I decided to claim the &#8216;kid&#8217; as my own RP son (this &#8216;kid&#8217; is 17 years old, yet uses an adorable (but hard to understand) voice changer).<br \/>\nThe only &#8216;problem&#8217; (joking really, but) is he listens to &#8216;Uncle Kovo&#8217; (who I&#8217;m trying to get my son <em>not<\/em> to, as Kovo is a bad example!) Especially when Kovo now has a &#8216;new toy&#8217; he doesn&#8217;t mind whipping out.<br \/>\nGod DAMNIT, Kovo!! \ud83d\ude1b Stop putting bad things in my son&#8217;s head! I&#8217;m trying to raise him up <strong>right<\/strong>, dammit!! lol<br \/>\n&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;<br \/>\n<em><strong>A Fun Friday<\/strong><\/em> <em>(You get banged, and <span style=\"text-decoration: underline;\">you<\/span> get banged! EVERYBODY gets ban&#8211;)<\/em><br \/>\nIt was fun for another reason too.. I wasn&#8217;t in extreme tooth pain (which allowed me to play VRChat more). It was the evening and there wasn&#8217;t that much going on (but I saw Ron on and joined him). He (and some friends of his) were watching some TF2 memes.<br \/>\nBreezy joins (asking me to invite him here). Not much happened besides being with Breezy as the day before, his new BF broke up with him.<br \/>\nThe video ended, and one of Ron&#8217;s friends came over to me.. a fox avatar with huge boobs. Wow. He started getting all cuddly with me and stuff, then he laid down on the bed as if to say.. well, I&#8217;m pretty sure you get the idea. Asked him beforehand, just to make sure. And so that was.. &#8216;bang #1&#8217;. &#8216;bang #2&#8217; came from Ron who wanted to go to that world with the moving chairs.<br \/>\n&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;<br \/>\n<em><strong>The Russian Red Fox<\/strong> (<span style=\"text-decoration: underline;\">And why I nearly fell inlove with him<\/span>)<\/em><br \/>\nNow, &#8216;bang #3&#8217; came from someone that I uh.. okay, it was <span style=\"text-decoration: underline;\">one time<\/span> when I was still dating Ron. I don&#8217;t even call it an &#8216;official&#8217; cheat.<br \/>\nBut his name is &#8216;Red Fox&#8217; who speaks fluent Russian (and English being his second language). And I don&#8217;t know why, but I just really like him more than the others I&#8217;ve had virtual sex with. I like his personality and he&#8217;s really sweet.<br \/>\nBut the only thing that stops me, is.. himself. I mean, as a person I really do like him. But he talks a life that makes mine look like a walk in the park, and says &#8220;I don&#8217;t want to put the burden of my life on anyone&#8221;.<br \/>\nFrom what he told me, he used to have an older brother. But this brother screwed his family and got them in ridiculous debt to the point he feels his life could be over at any minute, any hour, any day, or any week (once the debtors come). But he looks at life and understandably appreciates being alive every day (more than I can say about<br \/>\nmyself). And he knows he has to be strong.<br \/>\nCompared to the stories of parents getting in the way (or a past love), his is the most traumatic I&#8217;ve ever heard of someone I really care a lot for. How I wish I could take him away from this burden he&#8217;s going through!! But.. I can&#8217;t, and he knows I can&#8217;t. Even if I could support myself enough to support him, it isn&#8217;t going to solve his problem. That&#8217;s why he says he doesn&#8217;t want to put his burden on me. No matter how much I want to do something.. anything for him, there&#8217;s really nothing I can do.<br \/>\nBut, this doesn&#8217;t make me any less of a friend in his eyes. He still appreciates all the sweet things I say to him.<\/p>\n<p>.<br \/>\nIn closing, do I <em>really<\/em> want his &#8216;<a href=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/watch?v=YHimia_Fxzs\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener noreferrer\">dirty laundry<\/a>&#8216; in my life? ..Not really. I got enough to worry about. And as I said, this isn&#8217;t going to stop me from telling him how cute he is. Yet I do this to everyone I find attractive (and finds me attractive too).<br \/>\nInfact I&#8217;m actually starting to get used to not being committed to one person (since it seems less and less likely Jero&#8217;s going to be my BF, and I might as well change my Discord profile pic back to what I had it).<br \/>\nBeing committed to a distant relationship, has proven time and time again with all the relationships that have ended (in the span of <span style=\"text-decoration: underline;\">three months<\/span> <em>including this one<\/em>)&#8230; that there&#8217;s only a 10% chance of successfully going past distant and actually meeting your sweetheart IRL (which is a 0% chance for me at this time).<br \/>\nSo, why not get (virtually) lucky with as many lonely bi or gay guys as I can? Be like Jusper&#8211; find friends with benefits. That&#8217;s all I need in my virtual life. Well, that and eventually to get a Vive or the Valve Index (and have full body tracking).<\/p>\n<p>EDIT: Yesterday really took an emotional toll on me to where I thought of either not coming on or leaving early for bed. Was going to join the game earlier, but I was having to deal with RedJoker (one of Kovo&#8217;s RP sons). We were talking about what Sparky sent me that Kovo was &#8220;riding his new model&#8221; and is &#8220;using his thang in my character&#8221;.<br \/>\nAnd you know what was even more cringeworthy? They were doing it in a Friends+ instance, where anyone can walk in and be all&#8230;<br \/>\n<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/media1.tenor.com\/images\/6262fec40cdf89e498ccb2e87d795507\/tenor.gif?itemid=11013027\" alt=\"Gasp Shocked GIF - Gasp Shocked Shook GIFs\" width=\"400\" height=\"231.11111111111111\" \/><br \/>\nWhat. an. IDIOT!! If you&#8217;re gonna fuck, do it in a Private instance! That&#8217;s what they&#8217;re designed for!<br \/>\nThen the conversation went to explaining why I found it weird that Joker was OK about being groped by Kovo if he (Kovo) ever got VR, which really stressed me out of what images I chose to explain myself (and he wouldn&#8217;t drop it). Trying to get him to understand, I already have my mother who is just as stubborn to learn things on her<br \/>\nown.. I don&#8217;t need it from him.<br \/>\n&#8211;<br \/>\nFinally getting on VRChat (much later than I usually do), Kovo is claiming that my son was running around doing what I did Friday; having virtual sex. This both made me embarrassed (yet also fake proud of him &#8216;being like his father&#8217;). But, I <span style=\"text-decoration: underline;\">knew<\/span> Kovo was lying to me.. and I was right when my son showed up and I had him face Kovo to get the truth.<br \/>\nYet this stressed me, and I don&#8217;t know how. But I think it&#8217;s because he was too tired to really react to me making fun of him.<br \/>\nAlso, Jero being online (yet never deciding to visit me or our adopted RP son), didn&#8217;t help the situation either. But I went with my son through a few worlds (for him to join<br \/>\nLunar, who he actually has a small crush on.. <strong>that&#8217;s my boy!!<\/strong> \ud83d\ude00 ), we were also joined by Blueberry and Aftershock.<br \/>\nA few more worlds after that (with Blueberry calling me &#8216;a big gay&#8217; (more like a big bi). Then finally Aftershock wanting to do some Murder. No thank you. Waited until they all went though the portal, and I went my own way to see a few friends (still greatly depressed over Jero not wanting to come see me).<br \/>\nI know I said &#8220;I&#8217;m not mad&#8221;.. but god damn it! He said he&#8217;s busy, yet he&#8217;s so busy he can&#8217;t take time off to see our son?! I don&#8217;t even think he cares anymore. Sat by myself in one world with everyone hanging outside infront of a mirror, tired and almost falling asleep wondering if I should just leave (and also muting myself), suddenly my son shows up.. and I forgot I had muted myself all that time. I was trying to tell him about Jero and stuff, and I completely forgot I muted myself! Such a dumbass!!<br \/>\nI&#8217;m going to have to tell him in DMs, that basically I want him to understand I&#8217;ll be his only father until I actually meet someone special in my virtual life.<br \/>\n&#8211;<br \/>\nWas also in Rusty&#8217;s latest world (which looks directly ripped from Stormwind&#8217;s Dwarven District from WoW. It even has the Deeprun Tram, but it doesn&#8217;t connect to Ironforge).<br \/>\nIn one corner are a bunch of pictures taken over the years of the old Best Boi community. Looking at these images, almost made me cry. This was a time when life was simpler&#8211; No drama. No heartbreak. Just me being blown away by meeting these guys.<br \/>\nSomething caught my eyes as I moved to the lower right. &#8230;Creepery&#8217;s pictures?!<br \/>\nDid, Rusty add these (to show no hard feelings)?? This really blew my mind. I really hope it was Rusty&#8217;s way of saying &#8220;I&#8217;m sorry for what I did to you. Rest in peace.&#8221; And if that&#8217;s true, then why am I still holding a grudge.. when I still don&#8217;t know the full story?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>&#8220;Love is needing, &#8230;.. to be loved!&#8221; -The feeling of my soul Happy random Sunday! Since I&#8217;ve been in pain &#8217;till I started taking these &#8216;ANACIN&#8216; pills, I haven&#8217;t had much time to talk about what&#8217;s been going on in &hellip; <a href=\"http:\/\/benies-blogs.com\/general\/2019\/06\/23\/i-have-an-rp-son-a-fun-friday-the-russian-red-fox\/\">Continue reading <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[25,2],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-7127","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-drama","category-personal"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/benies-blogs.com\/general\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7127","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/benies-blogs.com\/general\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/benies-blogs.com\/general\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/benies-blogs.com\/general\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/benies-blogs.com\/general\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=7127"}],"version-history":[{"count":10,"href":"http:\/\/benies-blogs.com\/general\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7127\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":7137,"href":"http:\/\/benies-blogs.com\/general\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7127\/revisions\/7137"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/benies-blogs.com\/general\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=7127"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/benies-blogs.com\/general\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=7127"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/benies-blogs.com\/general\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=7127"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}