{"id":7056,"date":"2019-06-07T12:21:33","date_gmt":"2019-06-07T16:21:33","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/benies-blogs.com\/general\/?p=7056"},"modified":"2019-06-11T16:23:29","modified_gmt":"2019-06-11T20:23:29","slug":"an-emotional-rollercoaster-of-a-day-in-vrchat","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/benies-blogs.com\/general\/2019\/06\/07\/an-emotional-rollercoaster-of-a-day-in-vrchat\/","title":{"rendered":"An emotional rollercoaster of a day in VRChat"},"content":{"rendered":"

Before I start, this doesn’t include what happened in the moments during or after finding Sneaky and Wuffer are dating (as it’s already been explained in the edit of my previous post). What I’m about to say, happened in the evening and night.
\nAnd to start it off, I sent a DM to Wuffer saying the same thing I said to Sneaky. Half of myself felt the DM was a waste of time, but the other half wanted Wuffer to know there was no hard feelings with me. Also told him “I appreciate you hanging out with me when you did, it meant a lot. And I hope you’ll do it more, as I will also.”
\nJust don’t do what you did before by acting like I don’t exist, and I won’t consider unfriending you. That’s all I ask.
\nAlso, this post contains some<\/em> lewd (nothing graphic though). If you are offended by such nature, then click away from this post.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Anyway, let’s get this started by myself trying to hang out with friends and sub-friends (yet mostly staying on the second floor of the modern house, looking out at them and sighing a few times). I wanted Breezy to be out of a private world. I wanted his cuddles more than ever. So I stayed there by myself, waiting for anyone to be curious enough to wonder what I’m doing up there. What was great, is there was like 15+ people there, and my computer was still as smooth as butter(around 50-60FPS, where it would typically be 11-20FPS with my old hardware). I absolutely love<\/strong> this upgrade. \ud83d\ude42
\nContinued to chill by myself, starting to get a bit bored. Still, no-one was curious enough to come up and see me. I don’t feel it was deliberate, though.
\nAn hour passed, and then a few finally saw me. Zura and a few others came up
\nhere, wondering why I wasn’t with the others. I told him that I “have nothing really that interesting to say to contribute to the conversation down there.” But finally Breezy came out of that private world and I quickly joined him. Chilled with him for a bit. The poor guy’s getting sick (and sounds like he has the same thing I had). Except, he has to work and is kind of pissed off about that (especially when I told him it took a week and two days ’till I felt better).
\nHe asked if I wanted to go back to see the others, and I said “sure” (since he’s here
\nnow, and I won’t feel lonely). So we went back and hung out with the sub-friends (friends I have but I don’t really hang out with). There was also this kid who looked at me and
\nasked “are you a dergin or something??” I said “yes I am a dergin”. And this kid was the life of this moment, annoying us in a hilarious way, and calling a Sergal a ‘door stop’.
\nCan’t remember what was said (and what I said).. again, fuzzy memory with multiple people are talking. But Breezy left me to go see others. That was nice of him, and went back to the second floor to do what I did before. Even told him that I need his
\ncuddles, but I guess he didn’t hear me or something.<\/p>\n

As I was chilling, someone surprised me from behind– RonNightfury, a sub-friend who would actually show to be more than that (in his own way). He changed his model into a Best Boi with boobs, then laid down on the bed like he wanted something. I looked at him curiously, with him not saying anything. Wildboy came up the stairs and gasped at Ron sitting there, then said “now that I would love to fuck”. I jokenly coughed and looked at Ron again, then said in a joking way “well if you wanna do it, then let’s go to a private world.” And he said “sure”, which shocked both myself and Wildboy. And Wildboy’s
\nall “you lucky bastard, I was going to score!” And surprisingly even more, Ron dropped down a portal for us. Then Wildboy said before I left “you go on and go, I’ve gotten enough lewdness.” And so I went through, expecting anything.
\nWe went back to the world Breezy was in, with him trying to use the movable chairs. But it wasn’t going to work right. Then he said “I got a world we can do this. My favorite world”. We went to this cool neon world, and went over to this room with these two chairs. Behind the chairs were a few buttons. He sat down in one and said to hit the MED button. I thought it was some sort of shader setting. So I did, and I saw him in the chair with his rear end bobbing up and down in a suggestive pattern.
\n\"Oh
\no_o …I think I’m going to enjoy this. Plus you can make the chair invisible. OOF. Wait ’till I tell Cyber this world.
\n{The rest is kind of TMI. Let’s just say Wildboy showed up while I was having fun by accident. But I did have fun after he left. And at the end, I ended up fucking an anthropomorphic female shark so hard.. and it was awesome. That was really fun.}
\nAlso, he’s kind of my BF now (even though I don’t know him that well). All I did was ask if he had one and if he would like one, and he said sure. But I do plan to get to know him more. Though it might fall apart and we’ll just stay friends. Who knows.
\nTrying to go back to the world with the friends and sub-friends, but most of them had scattered to other worlds. So we went to go see Kovo instead (who was on). Except, we showed up at a bad time (as Kat was going through some things in her life).<\/p>\n

Not much happened, only of Ron getting bored. So I took him to the house with the door that can be locked, suggesting we can do it here. But that never happened, as a friend of Ron’s was here with us.
\nThen Cute shows up, asking us what we’re doing here. Told her that we were “just hanging out”. And she says how the locked door doesn’t affect the creator of the world, and I cautiously laughed with her.
\nSeeing how nothing was going to happen, I suggested to Ron that we should go back to the main mirror. Shortly after, he said he was going to bed. Gave him a goodnight kiss and said I loved him, and he said it back.
\n–
\nSometime after that, I noticed Frost near me. He patted my head and I also noticed he’s no longer friends with me. I inquired why, and he said he removed everyone (due to what happened with him and Wufy). And I thought it was going to end there. But then he asks Kovo and myself of what happened with Wufy. Kovo tried to stop it, but I told him that if he wants to know, then let’s talk privately. So we went over to the area with the soccer
\nballs (and so did a few others). I told Kovo to also join us, who was surprised I was. So we got there, and I had to tell a lot of people that this is a private conversation (including Joker who was there).
\nThen FoxGrace comes running over and starts talking to Frost. Oh lord, this is gonna be fun. Told him too, and he went all aggressive on me, asking “why does he need to know? He should just block Wufy and be done with it.” And the more he talked, the more stressed I got and eventually walked off, saying “fuck it”. Ran over to Joker who was sending DMs asking why he was told to leave. I tried my best to explain it without revealing too
\nmuch.
\nWe ran over to another private area, where I told him there’s “love drama” between Frost and his former BF. He told me he was trying to do some kind of easter egg with a coffee cup and the hoops, and was pissed he couldn’t do it.
\nSaid “as soon as they’re done, you’ll be able to go back to the hoops. I promise” and gave him a big hug.
\nFrost ran up to me as we finished our conversation. Can’t remember everything, but Kovo messaged me saying “Well I was right”. Right about what, that Blue actually did cheat on DJ? But Frost re-friended me, saying he was sorry for leaving. And I told him that it was OK (and also about how I found out Sneaky has been dating Wuffer). He said that he’s glad I’m now starting the process of moving on.
\nWhen I told him how Wufy left, said how I felt I “failed him as a friend, but I also feel I shouldn’t”. He said to not blame myself. I said “Wufy was willing to change. That’s what he told me”, and he said “but for how long? A month? Two months?” And I couldn’t really answer. But he said what Wufy’s doing is a good thing.
\nThen he said he had to go, and I told him “not to do anything I wouldn’t do” (referencing what Wufy told me that Frost has suicidal tendencies). He chuckled for a bit, and said he wouldn’t. And also said that he’ll try to be on longer.
\nGave him a big hug, saying I missed him. And he said the same thing. Then he left, and I went back to the mirror. A minute later, Foxgrace (at the mirror) starts being aggressive again, asking me why I’m trying to figure out stuff by getting into things I have no business to. I told him “it’s called: caring for your friends” And he reminds me of how I asked him what was going on.. which I only asked why he left the group chat (it was never about the thing with Frost and Wufy). And all he said that “there’s a huge difference to helping friends and getting into something you have no business with”.
\nI had enough of his shit and went to go help out Joker instead, who said he lost the coffee cup. Found it for him and he went out the door. I stayed in the room for a long
\nwhile, feeling like absolute shit that Fox might be right… that I may’ve overstepped my boundaries. *sighs*
\n—
\nEventually got out of the room and tried to go over to Joker, and I’m hearing Fox talking about me to Kovo as I ran by. I stay there with him, not wanting to be anywhere around Fox. Kovo eventually runs up to me, and I’m feeling he’s going to say he’s disappointed of me. But he didn’t, asking “in your words, did what I say happen?” I replied with “as far as I know”. And he says “this proves Fox hasn’t a clue what’s going on”.
\nTold him that yes, I did ask Fox what was going on, but only why he left the group chat. And how I feel like shit. Then he got close to me and said “Ben, listen, this isn’t your fault.” I almost felt like tearing up of how stressed I was, scared I was going to lose Kovo as a friend over this. I thanked him. He said that Fox is “only watching out for Blue”, which makes me wonder if Fox might be one of the few that tried to make Frost look bad.
\nBut, he also has proof (straight from the horse’s mouth), that Blue is dating Frost.
\nContinued on with myself saying that Fox now has to be watched. And Kovo says “if Fox doesn’t believe us, we have proof. You have your blogs, and I have our messages.” I nodded in agreement.<\/p>\n

So, the rest of the morning (in Kovo’s world), he asked us if we wanted to watch some videos. And right there is when I knew, the time to move on is now (and suggested we go to the Bedroom Theater to do so, and opened a friends only instance of it).
\nWhen we got there and I was setting up the TV wall, I told them how I “had a lot of memories here”, how this is where Wuffer and I had been dating. Kovo made an
\napologetic “oh..”. Then I said “but since I’m having to move on, I might as well start with this place” (not even knowing that this decision would be very beneficial to me; being surrounded by good friends. And saying that, chokes me up). I was with Cyber, and
\nScooby, and so many others.
\nWas about 3:30 in the morning. Kovo’s all “I will watch one more video then I need to head to bed”. Timber was about ready to do one, and I said “I got one you guys will enjoy. It’s not something you all ever saw, but it’s something Wuffer and I watched.” Put on Asian Andy, and they laughed their heads off. It was good feeling of sharing the memories I had with him, with my true friends. This, is one way how I’ll move on. Might show them a few episodes of Angry Grandpa next (or a few car crash videos). Wuffer was into weird things.<\/p>\n

.
\nWhat a day. Also while I was in that world watching videos with friends, Klaus is DMing me saying Sayon is working on a new horror world (hopefully Part 3 of the Huggi Dungeon Series), and is going to be testing it before its release this weekend. But I told him how Acid’s planning to help me with my model this Saturday.
\nHe also says Sayon is now doing avatar commissions. …Hmm. Might want to ask him more info on that. Who knows? Maybe I might take him up on that offer (depending on cost).<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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