This is probably going to be my last blog entry for a long time. Because what I will say will probably make people laugh at me and tell me to shut up, or tell me to get a life.<\/p>\n
I can’t believe it ended over something so stupid as a TF2 exploit. But I knew this day would come.
\nIn ways, I’m happy. I feel free. Liberated. Yet I feel saddened that I’m this way and I don’t wanna do anything to change it, and they can’t accept me for the way I am.<\/p>\n
For as long as I can remember, and due to the reason I wasn’t.. ‘born around the internet’, I’ve always been serious around it. I feel like everyone’s always insulting me, when they’re just joking. I don’t know how to tell the difference.<\/p>\n
But this latest and final thing had nothing to do with this. It has to do with a little thing called “moral”. Always doing your best to do good (on the internet..), and warning others before they do bad things. Later on, hoping none of them would remember what I had said, I hopped back in. One of the members was talking about making a world that would have lizard people, and asked if the females would have boobs. I said no, but that wasn’t the kicker. What was when I said “at least lizard people with boobs isn’t as bad as exploting in TF2”. What I meant from ‘illegal’ is that you’re not playing the game the way it’s supposed to be played. And I shouldn’t of said that word. So to close it out, I dared Luxo to kick me out of the group.. “if you got the guts” infront of everyone. A minute later the deed was done. But I didn’t give a shit at the time. The laughing. The shut ups.. they all build my anger level, which really doesn’t take much to do. I exploded, turned into a “FUCK YOU!!! ALL OF YOU!!!” guy.<\/p>\n It’s been a day since what happened, and I still can’t get it out of my head. If only they could had accepted me for what I am, we could of all gotten along. Angry has. Why not them? This is probably going to be my last blog entry for a long time. Because what I will say will probably make people laugh at me and tell me to shut up, or tell me to get a life. I … Continue reading
\nIt all started with one of the members said there was a Facepunch thread of how to build unlimited sentries in TF2.
\nBeing moral, I did my best to hopefully make them stop before they do this terrible thing known as exploiting. All they did was laugh in my face and tell me to shut up.
\nI could had just went back to Gmod and ignored<\/strong> their conversation as they talked about how awesome this exploit is and getting banned from servers and shit. But no<\/em>… I had to say what was on my mind, with; “You make me sick…” and left the chat.<\/p>\n
\nNearly everyone was yelling at me in there, telling me to shut up and I don’t know shit. Including Luxo.
\nYet I gotta ask myself “you know why they did that, right? Because you couldn’t just let it go. What they did wasn’t any of your business.”, but at the time, and usually everytime before I open my mouth to say something stupid, I don’t think about it.
\nThen I added fuel to the fire which was the pit I was slowly going into by saying the word “illegal” in explaining what a exploit was.<\/p>\n
\nAnd then I grabbed about 20 kegs of TNT and threw them into the pit by saying “Either you stop discussing exploits or it’s bye-bye Benie”. I was hoping they would pick me over them, and I was horribly…horribly wrong. I was pretty much the laughing stock of the group.. again. When am I ever going to learn that no one gives a fuck about anyone else on the internet?<\/p>\n
\nBut I really don’t know if to feel like shit for something I<\/em> did. In a way I’m glad it’s over. They don’t need me trying to bring drama into their.. normal lives, which I do my best not<\/strong> to.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"