I’m back from my routine dental surgery. The two teeth got removed a lot easier than I thought. Even the nearly completely gone tooth was taken out. There was no pain, just a shitload of pressure. Kudos to the skilled hands of the head dentist. \ud83d\ude42
\nThough unfortunately, I have to go back in three weeks to get three more teeth out of my mouth. This time it’s the left side. It’ll be the day before BlizzCon. So yeah, I’ll be spending BlizzCon with a gauze in my mouth. :\/<\/p>\n
Anyway, quite a lot has happened recently. Some of it before my surgery, and some after it. Some of it had to do with my dislike about the new server. How I feel like a “stranger in a strange land” and have to “adapt or perish”.
\nOr, one can just choose to ignore it altogether. Leave the server again and never come back.
\nMost people embrace the change. Then again, maybe they don’t but don’t want to say anything. As for me, at first I felt I was “replaced”, all because I left the server. But Tom_Pairs actually gave me an idea; to start my own road building franchise. Where I don’t HAVE to build a town to build roads. I can get people to hire me to build their roads.<\/p>\n
So this means.. “Ender Road Works” might be coming to a town near you. Though I still need to find a location to build my HQ, then get back on the wiki and make a good article on what services Ender Road Works will provide, and pricing.
\nFinding a good location, and thinking of a design for a building, is going to be hard, if not unrealistic. Without a town, it’s going to look really…. weird just having a skyscraper in the middle of nowhere, with my house near it.<\/p>\n
However, this isn’t without issues. Major ones that would really make me feel replaced. Robin and Frozen(currently) have two separate regional divisions; an opt-in system that connects to all towns in their respected borders.
\nCurrently, frozen owns NWAT. And Robin owns EAST. Why this is a problem, is town builders in these areas are eligible to make decisions on major roads and rails. Right now, Trustee and down aren’t. But that could change.
\nIf it doesn’t, my franchise ain’t going to be worth shit. \ud83d\ude41<\/p>\n
. Anyway, the night before I went in for my teeth extractions, Music, Tom and I had a long night. I was explaining to Tom about what I felt about the server, and Tom was “Let me get Music in here and you try to convince him, as he doesn’t believe me”. I’m scratching my head, saying “Tom, I already told Music about this” several times. Yet he refused to listen.<\/p>\n So I had to explain what I said to Tom. Then somehow it turned into Tom abusing Music over how he does his job, and his RL job. I don’t remember what happened, but it was really annoying Music. Tom was claiming that Music didn’t understand what he was trying to say, and Music was saying how he’s not going to sugar coat everything for him. Tom says that Music is being too “direct” and “bullying” members. I personally haven’t seen this.<\/p>\n This ended with Tom ragequitting. After I came back, I heard Music gave Tom a double warning for what he said to him. So now, Tom’s wishing he never joined the server. Not sure if he got warned. Robin, one of the mods, told me how they’re going to hold off on it. EDIT: It looks like Tom is back to his normal self. He sent a formal appology to the Admins and Mods in Mumble last night(10\/18\/14). This is both good and bad news. Seriously, I’m having second thoughts of this road building franchise. I feel I’m going to get backordered with requests and be unable to do them all. Or people are going to force me to think for them, putting my own words against me. But yeah. Strongly thinking of quitting again, to save the server my drama. That’s why I quit before. Unlike others, I refuse to change. I refuse to move on. I refuse to adapt. Hell.. I even buried myself in an abandoned island to perish. Just become dust.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" I’m back from my routine dental surgery. The two teeth got removed a lot easier than I thought. Even the nearly completely gone tooth was taken out. There was no pain, just a shitload of pressure. Kudos to the skilled … Continue reading
\nThe second thing is a bit more ugly, but it doesn’t concern me. Let’s say I wish I was there for Tom. Yet, I really don’t know the full story. Just seems to be one giant blame game, or a lack of communication. It’s between Tom and Music.
\nAll I do know, is Tom isn’t himself anymore. He’s acting like… well, me. Except worse. He’s trying to get the new Mods demoted, all because he doesn’t like the new server and how everything has been going.
\nI’m not<\/span> this bad. Don’t mind the new mods, as long as they do their jobs. Which they are.<\/p>\n
\nThis lead to me being interrogated over being part of the conversation by two mods, of them asking if I knew anything different. Since I had a gauze in my mouth, I couldn’t talk correctly. Though I did my best, I couldn’t give them anymore info, as I don’t remember word for word what was said. Never took screenshots of the Mumble chat. Mainly, I was in pain and one can’t think when in pain. Plus I was trying to get ready to head to bed.
\nDidn’t expect to be up that late.<\/p>\n
\nBut, Tom acts like he’s alone in this. Doesn’t even listen to me anymore. He does admit what Music told me, that he’s trying to get the new mods demoted.
\nWhat happened to Mr always positive about life? …What the flying hell happened since I’ve been gone? What made him change so drastically? This is unlike him.
\nI may never know. Maybe it’s best I don’t. I have to remain calm for 24 hours anyway. Maybe tomorrow when I start to heal up, I’ll learn more.
\nFrom what I know, it’s a “he said he said” battle. There’s no winners. Only losers.<\/p>\n
\nGood, the fact he’s normal again. Bad… the fact he’s back to normal again.
\nWhy is it bad? I no longer feel he understands me. He’s grown out of the depression stage and moved on to acceptance. I’m still stuck in depression.
\nKeep trying to pull myself into acceptance with this whole road building franchise thing, but I keep getting bombarded by “you ain’t going to build roads like you used to! You’re going to be people’s bitches! So, just keep on begging to build roads. You’ll never change. Just leave the server for your own sake. No one wants your drama” thoughts. Which puts me back into depression.<\/p>\n
\nI may be a road builder, but a planner… I am not. Plus, the wiki page. How am I going to beg like a fucking dog for a bone, to get someone to…..do the fucking page for me? Having to depend on others is bad enough. Working for others feels degrading.
\nThis could be one of those ‘swallow your pride’ type deals.<\/p>\n